MY Yellow

Chap - 44

Olivia's POV

I got into the passenger seat of Owen's car after buckling the twins into their car seats. 

"You ready?" Owen looked at me, I took a deep breath before nodding. 

"Why won't mommy come to school with us anymore?!??" River whined.

"Because Mommy told she wants to get better since she's not well, silly" Ocean scolded him.

After that day and wasting my day with lots of thinking, I decided to continue my therapy, Dr. Adams was very much happy when I told her about this. Maybe it is for the better. And after talking with Old Lani, I decided to take a break from school and to work at the bakery, because I'll be honest, even though I'm just a Kindergarten teacher, there's a lot of workload and stress, so until I get well, I decided to take a break from that and to do what I enjoy doing that is, bake, dance and spend time with my babies. Yes, I talked with the headmistress and she was more than happy to give me a break to get better. I'm so lucky to have these people in my life. 

After dropping Ocean and River off, Owen and I left to go to the clinic.

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"Thanks, Owen... Though I could've just driven my car here... I appreciate it," I smiled getting out of the car.  I looked at the clinic and took a deep breath, I am nervous, maybe I can come some other day and not now... 

I was too busy going back and forth on whether to go in or not, to realize Owen standing directly behind me.

I felt his hands on my shoulders and looked back at him, he gave me a warm smile before gently pushing me to walk forward with his both hands still on my shoulders.

After taking the appointment card, we both went and sat in the waiting room. 

I felt a hand on my thighs and looked at Owen, he shook his head at me, I was confused at first, but later realized that he was holding my legs from shaking out of nervousness.

"Olivia Queen" I  stood up and the nurse came to me.

"Dr. Adams is ready to meet you," I nodded before turning to Owen who stood beside me.

"You can do this Liv, You got this girl, remember if it gets too hard, takes a break and remember that I am right here, beside you," I nodded smiling at him before walking with the nurse.

"You have a sweet boyfriend," I smiled at her not bothering to correct her. 

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I took a deep breath before opening the door, and there sat Lilian Adams, my therapist slash  Raph's sister. (like... she and Raph were in that same orphanage, so they basically became siblings to each other.)

"Hii Olivia!" one thing about this woman was that she never failed to make me smile. Just seeing her would brighten up your day. She was like an older sister figure for me too.

"Hi Lili," I smiled before hugging her tightly. I missed her.

"Take a seat Lil sis," I sat on a couch while she sat opposite of me.

" How are you? wheres my niece and nephew? They good?" I smiled at her eagerness, its been almost 2 years since we last talked, since I last came for a therapy session.

"I... am not ok, your niece and nephew went to kindergarten, they are doing just fine, " 

"Good to know that... Now... why didn't you call me?!!?!?" she threw a pillow at me.

"I'm sorry ok... I just couldn't come here anymore, I broke my promise to you, and I was not ready to let go!!!!!" I cried out, tears falling out of my eyes.

"Oh, baby..." Lili came and sat next to me, hugging me, " it was not your fault..."

"But it is... I dragged him into this mess, I promised you that I would protect him!!!! But I couldn't do that!!!!" 

"You did your best, my Lil bro was the happiest when he was with you,  and I can't thank you enough for that, you can't beat yourself up Liv," she looked at the bandaid wrapped around my wrist. 

"I know. and I am trying to move on, Owen said that I should work on myself to better so that Raph won't be upset that he couldn't be with me, that I should slowly and steadily move on so that Raph can be in peace, but the thing is... I don't know if I can do that,"

"Honey listen, you will do just fine, one can only move on if they try and want to,  you have to do this for yourself, you need to finally be at peace with yourself, start forgiving yourself, hmm? " I nodded slowly.

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"So... I will meet you on Tuesday at 10:00? " I nodded before we walked out of the room, to see Owen sitting in the waiting room... I thought he left.

"Owen, why are you still here? I thought you left," he shook his head smiling, "I didn't have much work today at the office so I decided to stay here in case you were feeling overwhelmed, I told you I will be by your side through every step you take, remember?" he said slinging his arms around my shoulder.

"You must be Owen, I'm Lilian Adams," Lili shook hands with Owen while he smiled.

"I'll be in the car, Liv, come out when you finish saying your byes and whatever you girls do," he smiled at Lili before going out. Lili looked at me smirking.

"So....."

"No Lili, we ain't dating," 

"Maybe you are not, but honey I've been learning the human mind for years now, and it would be a shame if I was not able to see both of you looking at each other with longing," she bumped her shoulders slightly with mine, " I know you like him Olivia, and that he likes you, maybe he is your escape,"

"I don't know if I like him, he reminds me too much of Raph, and I don't want that to be the reason why I like him, I don't want to like him as a replacement, I wanna be sure of what I feel before taking that step towards him,"

"I hope you do the right thing and not push him away Olivia," she smiled sadly before hugging me and going back to her room while I got out of the hospital and to the parking lot to see Owen waiting there with a coffee takeaway cup. He gave one to me before opening the door to the passenger seat for me and then going to his side.

I took a sip of it, and it was hot chocolate, I smiled at him gratefully before taking a few sips of it. 

"So how did it go?"

"It went way better than I thought it would go, it felt nice," I smiled at him as he leaned over and kissed my forehead, I looked at him stunned.

"I'm so proud of you, remember that too," he smiled softly.

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hi guys... sorry for the late updates, but for the next 3 months, it might be slow since my finals are around the corner and I'm really stressed about it... I've been procrastinating since my 11th 

So... this is Lilian