Traitorous Love

Chapter 23- What have I done?

Keigo flies me back to my shared apartment with Miranda. She said that she wasn't going to be home for the break and was going to see her family. 

 Neither one of us said a word on the way back. All I could think about was what I had said. "I'm not longer your daughter. I don't need you anymore" My hands had stopped bleeding halfway on the way home, but they continued to burn a little, especially when the air would press against it. I could tell Keigo was nervous for me, but I wasn't. I was finally free. I was free from her, from Cece. I didn't need them. Their toxicity, their hell, their judgement, their opinions, their comments. I didn't and don't need any of it. Not anymore. 

We walked into the apartment, and I kick off my shoes. Keigo stands near the door, "Aren't you going to come in?" I asked smiling. 

"Kid, are you okay?" he asked. His eyes brimmed with sympathy and sadness, as if I had done something wrong. 

I nodded, "Of course I am okay," Why the hell wouldn't I be? I just got rid of the worst person in my life. Keigo steps in, and takes off his shoes and jacket. 

"Are you sure?" He asks getting a cup from the cupboard and handing me a cup of water. 

I take it, and chug it down, "Yes, Keigo, I'm perfectly fine without them," I set the cup down on the table. I'm fine without them. I'm fine without them. 

"In fact without them I can finally do this," I murmured to myself. I turn around and face Keigo. One of the handful of people who has actually been kind to me, who told me that I'm good enough. Who has been there for me, to train me, to keep me on track. 

I take a step toward him. I can finally do this, without Cece, without Mom without anyone's judgement. 

My hands touch both sides of his face, "Kid, what are you doing?" I stare into his golden eyes, and see the exact moment he realizes what I'm going to do. I smile and bring my lips to his. His breath hitches, and he's hesitant for a moment, before he kisses me back. His lips are soft against mine, exactly how I imagined them.  My hands travel through his blonde hair, combed back neatly. I tug a little on his locks of hair making him groan. In response his hands go to my waist, as he trails them upward. His tongue swipes my bottom lip , asking for an entrance. We struggle for dominance for a while before he wins, he explores every inch of my mouth while I explore his, filled with the amazing taste of him. He's sweet, husky, everything I imagined. He bites my bottom lip, and I moan and he smiles against my lips. I smile back, pulling him closer, getting rid of any space between the two of us. 

We pull away, staring into each other's eyes. I stare into his beautiful gold eyes, "I've been wanting that for so long," I breathe, his scent. 

"Kid..." Keigo pulls me close to his chest, "you're crying," 

I touch my face, and sure enough there were the tears, "K-keigo," my voice all of a sudden starts to tremble, "what did I do?" I fall to my knees as realization strikes and Keigo falls with me. I told my mother that I no longer need her. I basically told her that she was a terrible mother. I told her that I wasn't her daughter anymore. 

"You stood up for yourself," he brings me to his chest and pats my head, "you did what you knew you could do,"  I sob into his chest, my tears ruining his nice shirt. 

I push away, "K-keigo I-i'm going t-to ruin your shirt," I stammered, while trying to take deep breaths. 

"I don't care, you need me right now kid," I smile, and then continue to cry again. I sob in his arms for I don't know how long. It feels good to be in his arms. They're strong as they hold me and my sobbing mess. 

Did I make the wrong choice? I told my mom that I'm no longer her daughter, and then kissed my boss. I am a slut. She isn't wrong, she is right. I need to apologize to her. She needs to know she's right, she needs to know that she will always be right. 

I pull away from Keigo, "I- I kissed you," I said through deep breaths, I'm hyperventilating. 

"Yeah, you did kid," He smiles, but then it immediately vanishes as he see's my reaction, "what's wrong with kissing me?"

"I-I kissed you," I repeated, "I kissed you, w-which," I need to slow down my breathing, "d-does that m-make me a s-sl-" I couldn't finish the sentence and I continued to break down in his arms.  He shifts under me his big hands cup my face and bring it closer to his,

"(y/n) you are not a slut," he says, "you did not kiss your mentor or your boss, you kissed your- well whatever we are," he said sternly, his eyes filled with fierceness, "that doesn't make you anything other than a normal person," he smirks.

I smile too, "I told them I'm not their daughter anymore, Keigo. I don't think they're going to take me back, even if I apologize," I say resting my head back into his chest. 

Keigo puts his chin on my head and rubs my back, "Kid, based on the way I saw your mom act today," I cringe internally, "and the things she said," he scoffed, "The mere fact that you want to go back to them, shows how much of a hold they have on you. I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but just think about if you really want them in your life. They have hurt you over and over again, and you are so dependent on them. If they really love you they will forgive you, but for the time being, and how tense things are, maybe you should take some time off from them,"

I nodded in his chest. He's right. Right now I need to take some time off from them, think about my priorities, and what I want. Not what mom wants or mom's priorities for me. 

We sat there in silence, Keigo holding me as I take in his scent. His musky scent, that smells so comforting, so safe. 

"You know (y/n)?" I look up and meet his eyes, "you kissed me,"

"Yeah so?" 

"Did you always want to kiss me?" I shift my eyes in embarrassment, giving my answer. He laughs, a deep, husky laugh, "I knew you were always into me,"

I bury my face deeper into his chest, trying to hide my embarrassment, and he continues to laugh, and I smile. 

I've done good. 

So I have a five page essay due Friday on a book I haven't started to read yet so I'm going to be taking the week off from writing. I will try to make it up on the weekend or maybe write a short chapter this week (probably a filler chapter)  but other than that see you guys later and I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

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