Traitorous Love

Chapter 48- Fake Feelings

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"Morning Y/n!" Miranda says to me the next morning. I'm hardly having a good morning. I spent the night just replaying the conversation between Dabi and Keigo over and over again in my head. Trying to somehow make sense of everything that I saw, everything I heard. And now, I need to get my act together. I need to still be the loving girlfriend that he thinks I am.

"Hey Miranda," I say weakly, forcing a smile on my face.

Miranda knew something was off the second I didn't greet her first. It became a little bit of a game between us: who could greet the other first in the morning. I know it's stupid, but it's just a fun thing between us.

"What's wrong?" She asked, probably noticing my puffy eyes, and my tear-stained face.

I shrug, "I can't really talk about it, but basically someone who I'm really close too screwed me over," which was putting it so mildly. Just the thought of him made this rage build in me. A rage that made my blood go past boiling point, and teeter on evaporation.

I might evaporate from hate and rage- what a terrible way to go. The perfect way to go would be to beat his sorry ass into the ground.

"Shit, Y/n," Miranda was sincere, "I'm so sorry, do you want to talk about it,"

I shook my head, "No, I just need to figure out what I'm going to do next," Telling Mr. Aizawa would be good, and it's what I should do. It's what I am supposed to do. But I can't help but feel a little... guilty.

Okay, fine. A lot of guilt. I know I shouldn't. He betrayed me, but I still love him. He helped me, cared for me, was one of the handful of people that I trusted whole heartedly, and was the one person that knows the real me. The only person that....

Bring her to me in one week Hawks

Dabi's voice rang in my ears. One week. I have one week to make sure Hawks doesn't "deliver" me like I'm some kind of fucking package rather than, oh I don't know, A human?!

"I get that," Miranda said pulling me out of my thoughts, "I'm here if you want to talk about it,"

I nod thanking her. I want to tell her what's been going on, "Hey, actually I have a hypothetical? You can't ask me any questions and everything really needs to stay between the two of us,"

"Oh? Okay," Miranda sits down on a barstool chair and I stand across from her against the counter.

"So..." I'm not sure where to start, or even if this is a good idea, "Lets say you have a friend, and this friend has a significant other who is... cheating on them," I watch as her face becomes thoughtful, "the thing is this significant other is really close to you and you're also really close with your friend. What would you do?"

Miranda rests her chin on her hand, furiously thinking, "I'm going to assume that this is a metaphor, something a lot bigger than cheating," she said. I don't confirm or deny that statement, but of course she isn't wrong, "I would figure out the severity of what happens if you do or don't tell the 'friend'. Just weigh out your options, but really weigh it out, because if you're wrong or if you make the wrong move, you could probably lose one friend or both,"

I could lose Aizawa or Keigo, or both. I've already lost Keigo, not that he ever loved me, anyway considering everything. It would be logical to go to Aizawa. I should go to Aizawa.

So why the hell do I feel like throwing up at the thought of it?

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I walk into Keigo's office, reminding myself over and over of my need to stay calm. He can't be set off about any of this. If he finds out anytime within this week I am royally screwed.

"Hey Keigo!" I went into the room. His eyes immediately bright up at the sight of me. I wonder how long it must have taken him to perfect that. He gets up from his desk and draws me into his arms.

"Hey Chickee," he gives me a kiss on my forehead, and we sit on his couch in the office, "what's up?"

"Just wanted to say good morning, since I didn't see you last night," I say, trying to keep any hints of hate and malice out of my voice, "how was meeting your friend?"

His eyes go dark, even though the rest of his face is bright and happy, "It was good, it was nice to see an old friend again,"

Old friend? How long have they known each other? How long have you been lying to me?

"Well, that's good," I say, losing myself in what if questions.

There was a second of silence, "What did you end up doing last night?" Keigo asked, rubbing his hand against my arm up and down. A thing he does when he knows I'm uptight about something.

A thing he doesn't actually do with love.

"Oh, I just spent the night in my room," I say. The lie is easy on my lips, "made it like a self-care night," what a bunch of bullshit

"Sounds relaxing," he says, thoughtfully, "you know? It probably sounds stupid, but when I was with my friend I kind of thought you were there with me the whole time," My heart stops beating out of my chest or maybe it speeds up so fast that I can't even feel it anymore.

"Why do you say that?" I ask, fumbling over my words.

He gives a careless shrug and presses a kiss to my cheek, "I don't know, I just felt your presence there," he winks, "maybe because I just missed you,"

I give a forced laugh, "Aww, I missed you too, not that I was gone for that long," and press a kiss to his lips for good measure.

"I was thinking," he started, "that if you didn't want to do undercover hero work, you could work at my agency as a sidekick after you finish your exam?"

Why would he be talking about our future together if he knows that I probably won't have a future to get to anyway?

"Really?" I ask easily, pretending in shock, "you sure?"

"Duh, who else would do all my paperwork?"

I playfully smack him, laughing for real, "You suck," and with another laugh I get up to go to my office. The interaction I just had was so real. It didn't feel like a lie. Even knowing that he doesn't actually love me. Even knowing that he doesn't work with the heroes. Even knowing that everything he has done or said has been a lie.

It still felt real. 

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