Warning; Depressing AS FUCK. oh, and breakups.
frerard bish, yaaas
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September 4th, 2007
Going inside the store to look at some new suits, I decided to just grab one that I liked best and go- my other suit was already torn on the side from the last time me and my special someone crashed out together; Gerard.
Today was our anniversary, and I was looking forward to celebrate it. After looking for some suits, I was going to a store and buy some balloons, all probably black, red, and white. I've also had this cake made yesterday so I'll be able to get it today, so I'll go to the bakery too.
"Celebrating anything? Marriage, a date?" The man who had been helping me look for my suit asked. I smiled, looking down at my inked hands and simply stated,
"Today's me and my boyfriend's 5 year anniversary. I'm planning on setting up a late night dinner at home or something to celebrate." He smiled back, saying that next month would be his and his boyfriend's anniversary as well.
When I had already gotten everything done, I rushed back to the apartment, knowing that Gerard probably wouldn't be home until the late afternoon or so. If he's already home, oh well. Might as well set it up there.
Opening the door and setting the cake down in the fridge, I opened the balloons and looked for my glow-in-the-dark paint to put on the balloons. I quickly applied it to the balloons then washed the paint off of my hands, running to get my suit and put it on.
I hadn't noticed that he was just in the other room, probably sketching something with the door partially closed, the door opened just a crack. I was about to go inside but saw an envelope on my desk and opened it.
I'm sorry.
- xoxog
Hearing his yawn and his footsteps, I shoved the letter into my drawer then saw a paint-covered Gerard come out of his room, seeing me all dressed up. His jaw slightly dropped in surprise, looking at me from head to toe. "You're looking fancy."
Gerard suddenly noticed the balloons set up next to the bed. "What's all this?"
"Oh, nothing." I said, thinning my lips and crossing my arms as I looked at him. "Do you hate me, Gerard? Do you hate me?"
He shook his head, furrowing his eyebrows. "What? No! I could never hate you, why?"
"Would you break up with me?"
"What do you mean?" Gerard asked. "Are you mad at me or something?"
"Oh, no, I'm not mad at you. Just imagine, if we were in a situation in which you wanted to break up with me, what would be the reason why?" I asked, my arms still crossed.
He shrugged, frowning. "I dunno. I guess... um.. let's see... you're, uh, kind of over reactive? You're kinda nosy, I guess? Okay. You do me."
"You're ignorant." I instantly shot at him. He looked taken aback. "You're so... so selfish. Selfish for your own feelings. I don't know, you're so forgetful?"
"What makes you say that?"
"Our fucking anniversary is today, Gerard! Today is our fucking anniversary and you didn't do shit. Here I am, trying to impress you and you do nothing." I pointed an accusing finger at him. "You bitch."
He tried to calm me down. "I'm sorry, I thought it was next week!"
Crossing my arms again and putting a fist up to my mouth, tears started to blur my vision. As I started to calm down, he started to talk again. "This is all great, y'know. I appreciate it."
"You know what? It's done. It's over." I shook my head, looking down.
Without warning, he kissed me. His dry lips against my wet, salty ones as he began to kiss me. Pressing me up against the wall, we were just there, until I dragged him to the bed.
*~*~*
I had woken up in the morning, but luckily he was still asleep. Getting up and putting on my clothes, I grabbed a sheet of paper and another envelope, writing down the same two words and an ending.
Cutting him a slice of cake, I placed it onto the plate then walked out the door.
I'm sorry.
-xoxofrnk
