Merlin's magic (Oneshots) 1

The magic realm (part 5)

A.N.://   Look... I know this chapter is short again. But really, I had no idea where this is going and this was so much FUN. GOD, I did not see this coming D:
Thanks again at GhostN27 for helping me figure out who Tanus really is.
I had a certain mindset and discarded it. You brought it back to me, thank you :)
Because you saw the potential this had.

(The art is.... er..... just look at it lmao. I thought it was cute. 

Yes, I'm on instagram as Changelink23. In case, you're not completely bored of my art. I only randomly post art on wattpad, or if it's especially connected to the story I write about. The rest is on my  insta page. Sketches and stuff I'm not proud of is on my tumblr. But my tumblr is chaotic, don't go there. I brainstorm story concepts there, too.)

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Rayleigh was Merlin's sense of protection. It was only natural that she grew in size. That her feathers spread and grew, until she reached the size of a small house.
Against her own will, she turned back into the falcon. The creature she had first represented herself as.
Upon Merlin's cries, she jumped into the air and flew right over the sea. Only to make a u turn and dive deep into the ocean.

As soon as her beak hit the ocean, however, it was clear that she would not find him.
She broke through the water, yes, but she was buried underneath. Feeling all those regrets, feeling the fear of hurting Arthur by making him drown, fearing of Merlin being the cause for it, she lost her power.
It didn't take long before her coughing head broke through the surface again. Gasping for air.

Merlin, rightfully panicked. Without questioning her, without blaming her, he ran into the water himself. But you know how it is. Running is easy on land, but if you try to keep up the pace in the water, you will be stopped. Merlin stumbled over the sudden hindrance at his legs and fell face first into the clear substance.

Arthur was deep within the sea. A mile away. Merlin could try and get there, but he wouldn't make it in time.
"ARTHUR!", Merlin shouted again, as Rayleigh finally reached the shore again.
She lay herself down on the sand, human again and coughing for her breath.

Tanus watched all this with mixed emotions. He could sense Merlin's fear. He could feel it growing stronger and stronger.

Tanus watched, as Merlin tried to swim over to where Arthur was. But it was now that his regrets sensed him blaming himself for letting Arthur go into- no- onto the sea in the first place.
And that send a wave his way. One that swept over him and kept him from swimming any further.
That didn't stop Merlin from trying though. Again and again, Merlin had to heave for air, because the waves were crushing him.

Tanus arms crumbled at their sides. Their staff grew hotter, as it usually did, when they were mad.
Tanus grabbed the staff tighter and closed their eyes as Merlin screamed Arthur's name again.
Tanus really, really wanted to blame Arthur for this. Wanted to be mad at him. Being mad at Arthur wasn't easy for them.
Because Merlin didn't hate Arthur. Couldn't hate him at all, actually.
The maximum on dislike Merlin held for this man resulted in calling him a 'prat.'
Tanus knew there were so many things Merlin could and SHOULD blame Arthur for.

He blamed himself instead.
Right now, Tanus blamed him too. Merlin should have never listened to Arthur's suggestion to meet Freya. Hell, Merlin should have never brought Arthur here!
He was only endangering the man he had sworn to protect. And in the process he was being self destructive! His regrets grew, because he was drowning Arthur in them. And by that he was making it worse and worse.
Tanus clenched their hands around the staff until it burned through the moss on their skin.
The heat, the burn, was welcome against the cold wind of desperation.