Solace of Calluna

Chapter 16

Chapter 16
Risk

I grasped for air as soon as I opened my eyes.

Same nightmares, same fears.

I've been having nightmares for about a month or two now. I just like to ignore them because how else can I even cope from it?

I look at the bright full moon surrounding with stars in my window. I exhaled and felt better now.

1:57 am. There's nothing new to this setup anymore. I'm now used in waking up early because of the sudden hit of horrible pain in my dreams. Although this is the earliest time that I've woke up from my nightmares.

Ininom ko ang water bottle na nasa gilid ng kama ko. Funny how I even bought a water bottle just because of this reason, now I feel like I'm tolerating these nightmares of mine.

Humiga ulit ako pagkatapos sa aking kama. Ilang minuto akong nakatitig sa kisame at hindi na dinadapuan ng antok.

Umupo akong muli at hinanap ang puting lagayan sa drawer na katabi ng kama ko.

I bit my lower lip and opened it. Marami pa namang laman dahil ilang linggo ko lang naman itong ginamit. Hindi ko alam ang susundin ko ngayon sa mga desisyon ko. This has bad side effects which is why I don't really like the idea of it, but sometimes this is the only way I know how to cope from this sleep deprivation.

Just when I was about to take some pills, my phone rings.

Arsellieus is calling.

I looked at the pills before deciding to put it back. Binalik ko ang lagayan sa drawer ko at sinagot ang tawag.

"Hello?" I answered.

Hindi siya agad nakasagot pero naririnig ko ang paghinga niya sa kabilang linya kaya naghintay ako.

"Did I wake you up?" He asked using a sleepy voice.

"No. I'm already awake even before you called me." Humiga ako sa kama ko at tumitig sa kisame.

"Why'd you call at this hour?" I asked when he's still not answering me.

"Nothing... I just can't sleep." He sighed. "How about you? Why are you still awake at this time?"

I had a nightmare again... I closed my eyes and answered, "I can't sleep too."

"Uh-huh... Do you want me to sing for you to sleep?"

I bit my lip. "O-okay."

Umayos ako ng pagkakahiga sa kama. Kumuha ako ng unan at niyakap ito habang nakatitig sa kisame at hinihintay siya.

"Tulog na, mahal ko"

I heard his soothing voice that's almost telling me that I can sleep tightly tonight. Ramdam ko ang pag-iinit ng mukha ko sa unang linya palang ng kanta, at hindi ko alam ang dahilan. Alam ko ang kanta, pero hindi ko akalain na ito ang kantang kakantahin niya.

"Hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito

'Lika na, tulog na tayo"

Hinigpitan ko ang pagyakap sa unan ko dahil para akong hinahabol ng kung sino sa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

"Tulog na, mahal ko

Wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama

Saka na mam'roblema