Scent of Eclipse

Chapter 28: Meet Again

That day he answered me that I called the wrong person, I didn't blame him for that. He was right… I called the wrong person.

I want to tell him now that I did not meet him to be my shoulder neither my way and sword to win this battle that I wanted to end. I didn't get him just to be my instrument. And I was wrong that I made him think that way... That he was just my toy. When he wasn't.

He did not meet me to be my bridge in these gaps… And I did not meet him to be my missing puzzle piece.

I met Zion to be my shelter in this continuous storm. And I set him free like that… Because I don't want to destroy the person who made me feel at least once that I am not weak. I set him free to keep him safe. He's too innocent to get hurt and to be in danger because of me.

Maybe someday… When I already have the courage to run into him again, I will meet him again and tell him that I want him to fall deeper in love. Someday, I will return to him when I have the chance and tell him that I didn't call the wrong person…

I stood up the way I do before everything got screwed up because of Lysandra. I am Ruby Shim Haji, the strongest half-blooded werewolf and Amaroq of the Western Clan. I am the eye of the west and soon to be the ruler of the east.

Chin up and stand straight, no one can beat you. I reminded myself before putting the lipstick stain on my lips... No one can take me down... Even love.

I heard someone knocked on my door. This is the day. Take it seriously. Never look back, move on, and find someone who will not bring you to the past.

"Ready na ang sasakyan mo, anak," paalala ni Xeres.

Tumango ako at sumilay sa labi ko ang maikling ngiti.

"Before anything else... Your brother is here."

I nodded to say that it's fine. Nevermind, I can't blame him for what happened.

I can't mock all the day, brag and shout at them for what have they done. The important thing is... As long as I have myself. As long as I have Zion.

Para akong sinampal at tinuhog nang mabanggit ng isipan ko ang pangalan niya. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko at hindi ko alam ang dapat na maramdaman.

How is he? Is he doing fine? Can he still remember the memories we made?

'Stupid.'

My wolf said as an answer to my questions. Binura ko ang mga alaala niya at tinaboy dahil sa isang bagay na ayaw kong malaman niya sa hinaharap. Goddamn! Of all people, bakit ako pa? Now, I can't even have the right to say his name.

"Ruby," my senses got back when Xeres called me.

"Coming..." I mumbled. There's a lump formed in my throat while breathing so I keep on gulping on my way down.

"Ruby!" Biglang tumakbo papunta sa akin si Reis at pumulupot sa braso ko.

Kasama niya pa si Ulfa. Hindi ko alam kung kasama niya ba talaga o kung si Ulfa ang sumama.

"I'm sorry... I won't do it again. I won't leave you again. Please talk to me... Hindi na ako magpapabuhat sa'yo sa mga mission. Hindi na ako magiging palamunin," he cried on my shoulder.