"Why didn't you tell me?" Luca asked.
"Tell you what?" kinakabahang tanong ko.
"I remember everything Ciel! Why didn't you tell me!" He shouted with his teary eyes.
I look away. Napakalakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko. Nanginginig ako, hindi ko siya maharap kaya yumuko ako.
"I'm sorry," I said while looking at the floor. Mangiyak-ngiyak na rin ako dahil hindi ko na alam ang sasabihin ko.
"Sorry?! Do you think it can fix everything Ciel?!" He shouted. Ramdam ko ang galit niya kaya nanginginig ako. Pero naiintindihan ko naman iyon. Kasalanan ko rin.
"H-hindi ko lang alam ang gagawin ko Luca sorry." Tumingin ako sa kaniya habang nagmamakaawa.
"You didn't know?! Ciel I know you're smart so don't use it as a reason!" sigaw niya sa akin.
"I know that's why I'm begging you to forgive me kasi hindi ko nagamit 'yung katalinuhan ko para maayos ko 'yung sitwasyon," nakayukong sabi ko. Malabo na ang mata ko dahil sa luha ko.
"I have a reason," I said.
"Then why?! Because you want to leave me? That's why you did this?" nanghihinang sabi niya.
"Hindi Luca, I just can't tell it to you," I said.
"Then why?!" sigaw niya sakin.
"Luca please calm down," nagmamakaawa kong sabi. Nanghihina na'ko sa ginagawa niya.
"No! I'm asking for a reason! Why can't you answer me?!" muli niyang pagsigaw.
"Because I can't,"
"Then how do you want me to understand you?!" sigaw niya.
"Because I know you can Luca." I look at his eyes.
"Alam kong ikaw 'yung taong makakaintindi sa'kin kasi alam mo naman na masikreto akong tao. Pero iniintindi mo pa rin ako," dugtong ko.
"But Ciel I'm asking for your reason, I want you to explain everything to me kasi naguguluhan ako," mahinahong sabi niya. Mukhang kumalma naman na siya.
"I'll explain everything, but not here," sabi ko at aalis na sana pero hinawakan niya ang kamay ko.
"But Ciel may pag-asa pa 'diba? We can fix this right? Mababalik pa natin 'yung dati 'diba?" nanghihinang tanong niya. Kita mo sa mata niya ang kaba. Umiling ako.
"I'm sorry," tanging nasabi ko at nagmadaling umalis.
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Romance"I don't like men, Im attractive at them." That's Ciel's Motto in life. But he doesn't know what destiny prepare for him.
