Inclement Season 2

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

After talking to Tita Irene I want to talk to Ara and have closure with her but I ended up seeing Luisa's message to me with pictures of Raze and Ara hugging each other inside the prison. They were talking until they hug each other.

From. Luisa:
Did you see that? Raze still loves her. Attorney Esquire just manipulating you because he wants to win the case for Ara. Seriously? Kung ikaw ang nasa posisyon ni Raze. Yayakapin mo ba ang ex mo slash kaibigan mo when in fact you should act as the lawyer of your ex slash friend but look at Raze. He's not even acting like a lawyer to her. I told you. Raze doesn't love you. He is just manipulating you.

Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang hawak-hawak ang cellphone ko at nakatingin kay Ara na natutulog sa loob ng kulungan.

Hindi ko alam kung sino paniniwalaan ko. Luisa has been my friend since junior high at wala siyang ibang inisip kundi ang makakabuti sa akin. Kaya hindi ko maiwasang maniwala sa mga sinasabi niya. Dahil kahit kelan wala siyang sinabi sa akin na hindi totoo.

Ano naman ang motive niya kung sinisiraan niya lang si Raze sa akin? Se doesn't like Raze because she likes Klaus and she's not the kind of girl who will choose to abandon her friendship with me over with a man at ganoon din ako sa kaniya.

Kaya yung balak kong pagkausap kay Ara at pakikipag-ayos hindi ko na tinuloy. Kasi ayokong kausapin siya na magulo ang utak ko. She didn't do anything to me now. It's all on me and Raze.

But I am still going to fight this case because I already swearing in front of the law.

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"Anong okay?" Pagod kong tanong sa kaniya. Lagi balang niyang sinasabi na okay kahit nababasa ko naman sa kaniya mismo na hindi talaga siya okay. "Please stop saying na okay lang kahit hindi naman talaga. Stop putting a gap between us. Gusto kong malaman kung ano yung nararamdaman mo. Gusto ko malaman yung totoong gusto mong sabihin... kasi alam ko naman hindi okay. Raze—" he cut me off and look at me.

"You want to know the truth?" Tanong niya.

"Yes... I want to know. Everything Raze. Gusto kong malaman lahat. Lahat-lahat ng nararamdaman mo. Please stop keeping that to yourself—"

"I'm fucking jealous!" He exclaimed. "I'm jealous that Lance can freely be with you in public without anyone going judge you or accusing you of something. Nagseselos ako dahil hindi ko magawa yung kung ano ang ginagawa sa'yo ni Lance. Hindi kita makasama. Hindi kita mahawakan. Hindi kita pwedeng lapitan kapag gusto ko dahil putangina you're the prosecutor of the case and a half-sister of my sister! I'm like a fucking stalker who's always from afar looking at you like an idiot because I'm not allowed to be with you." Unti-unti na tumulo ang luha niya sa mata niya. Seeing him crying and look devastated in front of me is torture. Nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya na umiiyak habang nakatakip sa bibig ko ang dalawang kamay ko.

"I'm jealous because I can't give you a normal relationship like how Lance can give it to you that easily. Everyone loves to see the both of you be together because it's a de Montaigne and Rodriguez who's has been partners since then. While me? Being an Esquire? Is not allowed to have you because of the past mistakes of my family to your family..." tumingala siya saka hinalamos ang muka niya. "Do you know... how hard it for me to face your Abuela because of the things that my grandfather did to her? I'm fucking feel like I'm such a hypocrite to face her calmly and dreaming to have you after all that my family did to your family. Nakakababa ng pagkatao Mav. Sobrang nakakababa ng pagkataong isipin lahat ng sinasabi ng mga taong nakapaligid sa'yo na kahit kelan hindi ako magiging sapat sayo dahil isa lang akong Esquire. An Esquire who has been ruining your family name until now." Napahawak siya sa sinks na nasa likod niya dahil sa paghihina. Napahawak naman ako sa bangko na nasa gilid ko dahil nanghihina ang tuhod ko.