Watch my Step (Friend Series #4)

Chapter 27

Truth be told, I've been believing that I have engaged myself in a marriage devoid of love. But after the dialogue we had, I don't know anymore. How his truth attacked me knew no bounds. And at this point, I just want to choose to believe him.

Sa mga nakalipas na taon, wala akong ginawa kung hindi ang itanggi ang lahat. I ignored his consideration, his patience... and his love. I chose to ignore them all because I have always thought that those were not genuine. I have realized now that he wouldn't put up with my behavior and choose to get trapped with me in this marriage if he really doesn't feel anything for me. Because unlike me, he can easily get out in this marriage whenever he wants to... but he didn't.

He chose to stay and this time, I choose to believe him.

"So, you really don't have plans on telling me of Aesthrielle?"

Itinigil ko ang pagbukas ng cap sa mascarang hawak at sinulyapan siya mula sa gilid ng aking mata. I caught his earcuff first before the side view of his face.

I really find the structure of his face neither hard nor soft. I couldn't categorize it generally. He's a strong jawline and nose but his lips scream softness as well as his eyes always look gentle.

Mabilis kong binalik ang tingin sa harap nang lumingon siya sa kinauupuan ko. Nasa loob kami ngayon ng kanyang sasakyan. Siya ang nagmamaneho habang ako ay nasa passenger seat. Weekend ngayon at may pupuntahan kaming hindi ko alam kung saan.

"Wala." I flatly said and started putting mascara on my eyelashes.

"Hindi ko talaga mapapantayan ang loyalty mo sa mga kaibigan mo, 'no?"

Tumigil ako sa ginagawa at ngumisi. "I am not loyal to you."

I swore when he stepped on the break pedal suddenly! Tumama sa mata ko ang brush!

"Kai!" I grunted.

"Anong sabi mo? Hindi ka loyal sa'kin?"

"'Yong mascara!" inis kong ani. Abala ako sa pagbalik ng brush ng mascara at binitawan na ito para hindi na makadagdag pa sa problema kung sakali.

Kai pulled the car over. Siya na rin ang umabot ng wipes sa glove compartment at tinulungan akong alisin ang mascara sa talukap at gilid ng mata. My eyes were closed while he's doing that.

"Hindi ka loyal sa'kin?" ulit nito kaya binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at saktong pinupunasan niya ang talukap ko kaya tumama sa mata ang wipes.

I groaned and he laughed. "Sorry."

"If you're not loyal to me, that means I must work hard to gain your loyalty as well?"

I hitched a bit. Sa lambing ng tono ng boses niya ay wala akong mahimigang madaya ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang ako ang nasasaktan para sa kanya.

Kai gave his trust and loyalty to me without me, lifting a finger. He just gave it so freely while I was always giving him a hard time in everything.

Unti-unti kung minulat ang mga mata nang tapos na siya sa pag-alis ng mascara sa mukha ko. I busied myself by looking my face in the rearview mirror.

"I am faithful to you." I mumbled. Hindi ako tumigil sa kakaayos ng buhok ko kahit ayos din naman ito. Mukhang sinisira ko pa nga dahil sa ginagawa kong pagkukunwari.