ꜰᴀᴛᴇ ᴏʀ ᴀᴄᴄɪᴅᴇɴᴛᴀʟʟʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ // ꜱᴏᴏʙɪɴ ꜰꜰ

Part 29

Part 29
Yoonji POV

It was about 2 p.m. I didn't know, what should I do right now. I don't think about eat or drink. I just think about Bomin. How stupid I am not knowing that he was very sick.

I took a deep breath. I walked to the door and I opened the door slowly. I saw my mom and also my older brother were standing in front of my door. My mom looked at me with shocking and sobbing.

"Yoonji-yah.." my mom called me and I know, my eyes were so puff and red because I am crying in the whole day. I took a deep breath and I looked down.

"Mom..Yoongi...I think, I have to move out." I said and I looked at them. My mom was so grateful and she was about to hug me.

I saw Soobin and all my best friends were also coming in the house. I looked at them with no emotion. My mom already hug me. I took a deep breath.

"I will moved out from Korea." I said and they are very shocking.

"Yah! That was too much. You just call my real name with no emotion and you said you want to move out from Korea?" Suga said and my mom was falling on the floor. My friends were  running, come to hold my mom to stand up.

"Are you sure with your decision?" My mom asked and I looked at her. I nodded and I shed tears.

"I..I am sorry mom." I said with regret but I have to do it. Everyone were keeping silence until mom broke the silence.

"If that the best decision for you, I respect it." She said. I smiled with tears. I am very thankful because my mom gave me a permission to go far away from here.

"Thank you mom." I said and I hugged her. She hugged me back with tears.

"Whatever." Suga said with anger and he walked away. He went to his studio and he closed it harder. It was my first time, I saw him with anger because of me.

After I have hug mom, my friends come and they hugged me. I was thanked them because they are coming in a right time.

"Yoonji-yah, I don't know what can I do for you. It was your choice to study abroad from our country but please.. don't forget, we always in the chat group. Don't kick yourself out from the chat group. Ok?" Dahyun said and Jennie shed tears.

"Between us, I always make trouble. I didn't know that we will make our own way someday. I hope, I do my own way first because I don't want to be sad but when it was you, who is study abroad first, I was so sad because you are the person that make us become always together. That's mean, you are the center of us." Jennie said and I smiled.

"No way! We all the center. Anyway, don't worry. I always remember about you guys. I promised." We did pinky promised.

Finally, I have to talk with Soobin. My best friends help my mom cooking in the kitchen. I went to look for Soobin at the outside of my house because he tell me to talk outside. I followed him. There is one bench near my house. So, he sat down there. I sat down beside him. He looked at me. He kept quiet. I looked at him back.

"Any speech for me?" I asked and he kept silence. I was uncomfortable because it was my first time, we did eye contact.

"I don't know what to say to you. My heart was not pounding like always I stared at you.. My heart become frost. I think, I feel too sad until I can't explain, what I feel right now.." He said and he looked away. He forced himself to smile but then, I saw his face become sad and tears coming out from his eyes.

"Don't be too sad.. I wondered why you keep loving me. I want to clear my mind. I don't want him always be the one that control my mind and also control my emotional. Let me bright my future first and after that, I will comeback. That's why I need time a little bit longer." I said and he nodded.

"I always waiting for you. I don't want to forget our memories. I want it to be fresh in my mind even you are not here again." He said.

"I am sorry because I have to go far away from here. You know, it was hard to forget someone that you have love for years even you replace with someone else. I feel like I just used you to forget about him. I am so sorry. I didn't mean to do it." I said and I shed tears even I am tired to cry again.

"Hey. It's ok. Anyway, you didn't do anything to make me think you're a bad girl. You never made me feel broken. I never felt like I was used by you. I'm fine. I accept if you didn't choose me one day." He said.

"Anyway, I meet you in my dream before I meet you. That's why I was scared and so shock when I first time meet you. I didn't know, why I meet a stranger in my dream. I think, it was my fate that you will be my angel. Only you can make me feel more happier and be calm. If there was not you around here.. I think, I will be stay in my room forever. I want to say thank you for be my angel. You save me." I said and I wiped my tears. I looked at him. He looked at me back

"It was my first time, I heard someone telling a story about me in their dream. Anyway, you're welcome, Yoonji." He said and he hugged me. "When you arrived at your destination, please take care of yourself. I will miss you and please don't forget to contact me." He said and I smiled.

"Thank you, Soobin." I said and we let go hug. We smiled and laughed because it was feeling awkward for suddenly. Soobin staring at me for several minutes and he shaked his head. He hold my hands. His hands so fit my hands together.

"Now, go look for your brother. He must be so angry right now. I know he love you so much because you are his only sister." He said and I nodded.

"Don't worry. I can handle him." I said and I smiled. He let go my hands gently.

After I was chit-chatting with Soobin, I went to my older brother studio. I never see him become so mad before except when I was a child because I got bully by these other kids same age with me at the park.

I opened the door with the password that I know it. When I got open it, I took a deep breath and I went in the studio. I saw he was sitting down on his sofa. I closed the door and the door was locking.

I looked at around the studio. I saw his luggage bag with full of his stuff. Well, he was done preparing everything to go to his dorm later. I took a deep breath again and I sat down beside him.

"Hey." I said and he looked away. He kept silence. "I am sorry because I did make a shock decision without telling you. Maybe, you are right. I have to listen for mom and.." he looked at me.

"And you make yourself to go far away from here because of your ex? Hey! That's too much. I can't accept it because you will go far away from here. Who will be help our mom business? Who can I talking with when you study abroad there? Don't you think about it?" He said with many questions. He must very mad at me..

"It was not because of my ex but I want to learn how to handle myself by my own way. I want to learn without getting help by other people. Min Yoongi! Please understand. We have our neighbor and you are staying here in Korea. We also have our friends can visiting our mom. Are you ask all the questions because you don't want me to go there right? To go far away from here right? Just tell me the true. Please.." I said and I shed tears. He sighed.

"Ok. It was true. I can't let you go alone there. It was too dangerous for a girl like you. Can't you think about it twice? Please. Stay here. I can pay all your studies here. Don't worry. I will be the best composer in this world. Can you promise me to stay here?"

"No. I have to go there. Just let me go. I can handle myself. I promised that I can handle myself. I am not a baby. I am an adult." I said and he sighed again.

"Let me think about it. Now, you can get out from my studio." He said with anger and I just nodded. I leave him alone.

"I hope, you think about it with your genius head." I said and I leave him.

I closed the door and I went to my room. I arranged all the stuff that remind me of Bomin. I put it together in a special box. I took the box and I put it in the closet.

Then, someone was knocking my door. I tell him to come in and Soobin opened the door. He was standing in front of the door.

"Your mom has done cooking. Let's eat." He said and I smiled.

"I'm coming." I said and I put myself together. I stand up and I joined them eating.

Anyway, I hope my brother gave me permission. So, I can go there without regrets.

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