Electricity - Alex Turner

35. Cruel world

Trigger warning for this chapter. If you don't think you can handle it or something may be a trigger for you, I'd suggest you not read this chapter.

"Alex." I whispered. He quickly opened his eyes and looked at me scared and confused.

"Are you alright? What happened?" He quickly asked. "What time is it?"

"Um...Around 3 or 4 am?" I said. "Sorry for waking you up."

"For fucks sake, why are you apologising? Tell me what happened." He said and brushed his eyes with his hands.

"I thought about it and I don't think I'm ready to be in a relationship again...I'm truly so sorry." I said and his lips formed a line. "I think the drug effect worn off. I still feel a bit weird though."

"Why are you apologising? Oh my god!" He sighed and hugged me. I placed my head on his shoulder and shrugged.

"I know I kissed you twice yesterday but I'm s-"

"If you apologise one more time I'll start crying." He chuckled and I laughed quietly. "Tell me honestly, why are you always apologising?"

"I think I'm just used to Theo." I said and he sighed and stroked my hair.

"I'm sorry for what I said at the cabin. I didn't meant anything of that." He said and I nodded. He pulled away a bit and cupped my cheeks.

"I know." I said.

"I can lose fucking everything. But not you." He said and I nodded smiling.

"You won't lose me." I assured him. "Now go to sleep." I giggled.

"Do you promise that you're fine?" He asked.

"I promise." I said. He nodded and kissed my temple then he rested his head on the pillow. "Sweet dreams, even though I interrupted your sleep." I giggled.

I fell asleep in his arms and woke up with my head buried in the crook of his neck. He was gently stroking my back and I opened my eyes and looked at him.

"I brushed my teeth." He said and I started laughing.

"Fuck off." I giggled and stood up. "Good morning you dickhead."

"Good morning my darling." He said and I started laughing again. "How are you feeling?" He asked as he followed me to the bathroom.

"I'm fine." I said. "I'll go out for a walk later, to clear my mind."

"Are you sure you can?" He asked as I grabbed my toothbrush.

"Of course? Alex, don't go soft on me." I chuckled.

"Fine..Um, uh..Bitch?" He said and I bursted in laughing.

"Excuse me?" I exclaimed and threw a small towel at him. "You are unbelievable!"

"I don't know why I said that." He started laughing.

"You amaze me." I giggled and started brushing my teeth.

After I finished I laid back on the bed and Alex looked down at me, his hands on his hips.

"Al? Can I tell you something?" I asked quietly and he quickly nodded. I got up and Alex kneeled down in front of me, between my legs and grabbed my hands.

"Yes sweetheart, of course." He said.

I felt tears running down on my face and I quickly brushed them away. I held his hands tightly and he looked up at me, worried.

I took a deep breath and finally spoke. "I think I got raped. Multiple times." I said and I quickly started crying uncontrollably.

"Wh..What?" Alex asked. "Shh, don't cry my love, I'm here." He said and quickly hugged me tightly, letting me sob on his shoulder.