Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

사십 칠

Yiyeong

I placed the bowl of instant noodles in front of her and Bang SeNa looks at me. "Is this for me?" She asked me.

I nodded my head. "Are you sure that you didn't put poison in it?"

I rolled my eyes at her this time, I can't believe that she is still like this. "Do you want me to poison you so that you have a reason to allow your father to get rid of me for real?" She shook her head. "Then eat it, I know that you didn't eat anything for the entire day."

She nodded her head and she took a bite of the noodles which she immediately started slurping the noodles and she ate it at such fast speed that I didn't realize that it wasn't speeding up but she is eating quickly, I thought that she would get rid of her habit of not eating anything at all. But she is eating now and she looks more like a teenager than she should be, she looked and seemed so mature that I couldn't find a way to get through to her but it seems that food is the way to her heart.

She stops eating for one second and looks at me. "Are you going to just stare at me eat?"

I nodded my head. "I cooked it for you anyways, it is for you. Why are you skipping meals again? I thought that you would have learned your lesson the last time that you spent almost a week in the hospital."

"There is nothing to eat at home and I don't know how to cook, I ran out of my allowance and my father is not going to give me any more money until next week." She said to me.

"And what did you even do with the money?" I asked her. "You spent it on clothes and makeup?"

She nodded her head. "They are not going to be mine if I don't buy it and they looked so cute."

"But you won't have a chance to wear it if you don't eat, you are very tall for your age and you have to eat a lot for you not to collapse like that time," I told her. "The clothes are just going to be on your body and you are going to stuff it in your closet after a few times, food is going to make you stay alive and you will never die. So what is more important to you?"

"Food." She answered. "But I will be fat if I eat this."

"You will be happy that you ate, your stomach will not growl because you have eaten. Is that right?" She says nothing and goes back to eating. "If you say that you don't know how to cook, is there anyone at home who knows how to cook?"

She shakes her head. "We have a kitchen but it is practically useless because we don't use it, you use it a lot and the house finally smells like a house. I liked your cooking as well." She said something that I have never expected to hear from her.

Bang Sena is one teenager that I swear to myself that I would avoid if I ever meet her on the streets, she had the worst attitude that any teenager would have and she is a nightmare, she isn't kind towards her siblings and she treats me like I am so inferior to her. My last straw was when I spent all my time at the hospital just taking care of her but she doesn't seem to even care and she didn't even thank me for it, I was so hurt and her words made me want to give up on this entire but I realized that she is just a teenager with a troubled past and she is using that as her defence mechanism.

Although I don't exactly know the full details behind why her mother decided to leave Mr Bang, she must have felt so betrayed by her mother's love that she didn't believe anyone's good intentions and dismiss them as making fun of her feelings. And to burst out into tears like that, she must have gone through something so hurtful that she has to let out her feelings about it, that she is tired of it and she wants someone to comfort her wounded heart.

And somehow I became that person, even though I am the one that she wants to avoid the most but she ran into my arms without any hesitation and she cried in my arms for nearly an hour. "Stop staring at me, you are starting to look like a creep."

"I am not a creep, I am just happy that you ate my food, considering that you want nothing to do with me. Why did you cry like that earlier? Something bad happened to you?" I asked her and she says nothing in return as I have expected, she wouldn't want to tell me anything about her life.

"I called my mother because it was her birthday and I wanted to wish her a happy birthday but I heard something else instead and I was so disgusted by it, she was having sex with that man." I was quite shocked by her choice of not censoring anything in her sentence. "She didn't even remember my number and she disregarded that and she did the most disgusting thing that I have ever heard from her."

"Do you love your mother?" I asked her, trying to distract her because I was feeling awkward about the topic that we were talking about.

"She is my mother, there is no reason why I shouldn't love her but she doesn't love me the same way that I loved her. She seemed so different from the mother that I used to have in my life, that wasn't the mother that I wanted." She said as she looked at me. "You are then the one, you made me want to have a mother again. You made me want to feel loved, a mother's love that I have been wanting for a very long time." She started to cry again and I got up from my seat and I went over to the other side to comfort her, I started to burst into tears as well because I have never expected SeNa to want me as her mother.