Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

십오

Yongguk

I stared at my phone, waiting for the babysitter to update me about what she has done so far, it is not that I don't trust her enough with my 3 children and my entire house, it is just that my encounter with a legitimate babysitting company has not been the best experience that I ever had and to top it off, it was the first time that I allowed a complete stranger to be in my house and take care of my children. 

That babysitter that was hired didn't do her job well and she brought Sehyun to harm, pinching him and raising her voice at him. If I were to be there, I would've fired her right on the spot but I just had to be at work, I am the breadwinner of the family and that meant that I would've to work almost every day or there is not going to be food on the table for my family. 

If she was still here in this family, she wouldn't allow a stranger to be taking care of our children without any supervision but sadly, she just had to leave at a time where our 3 children are still growing and needed the care of a motherly figure in the family. Sometimes I wished that she had brought one of our children into her care so that my life would be easier, it would either be SeNa or SeJeong since they are older than Sehyun who needs a lot of love and attention but then again, she was the one who walked out of her own marriage to be in the arms of her boss and she has never left his side ever since. 

So it is still the best choice that the court ruled that the children belong to me and that she has to pay a hefty sum of money for the children's education. It might be very tiring for me now but the children are all going to grow up someday and they wouldn't need too much of my help and I will be a part of their life with a daytime babysitter. 

I am not going to use her all the time to take care of my children, it is only for a short time until she finds a job, that was the condition that she came up with and it is a reasonable deal to agree with. It would also be a very good learning ground for her since she is going to end up in the early childhood sector eventually, she would learn a lot from taking care of my children. 

"Sajangnim, is there anything that I should be concerned about?" I looked up at my trustworthy assistant and I shook my head, not knowing what she had meant. "You have been staring at your phone a lot, is there anything that you have been waiting for?"

"There is nothing really, thank you for your concern, you may return back to work," I said to her and she gave me a bright smile and she exited the office. That smile that she has given me earlier would have easily melted me all inside but I am not attracted to that anymore, especially I have been betrayed deeply by the woman that I loved so much that I could sacrifice my life for her. 

I have told myself not to fall for another woman ever again, it is not because I hated my ex-wife so I would hate every single woman in this world, I just didn't want to get hurt loving someone that I didn't deserve, it is not like she is going to stay committed to you all your life. And also, I am already in my mid-thirties, the chances of me ever remarrying is low as heck and I hope that it stays this way until I grow old and die alone. That is the only way where I don't hurt anyone and no one hurts me.

A message was sent in and it was a video, I immediately smiled at the thumbnail of the video, it is my youngest son smiling brightly. When is he not adorable? I played the video and his infectious laugh filled the entire background, it is one of his cute habits he does when he takes a video, he would burst out laughing because he is so excited to record himself.

"Appa! Faster come back! I miss you a lot!" He was shouting all his words but I didn't mind, he was just happy that he got to record himself and then sending it to me. "YiYeong Omma, can you say that too?"

My face faltered a little as the camera was brought to the owner of the phone that he was holding onto and she immediately covered her face with her hands. "Sehyun, what are you doing?"

"Taking a video of you, I want to show you to my father how good you are as my mother." He beamed in delight and Han Yiyeong just sighed. "Can you smile at the camera for me?"

"No, Sehyun... You have to take your nap soon or not you will become grouchy for the entire day." Sehyun still shook his head. "I'll give you a banana and a glass of warm milk."

"OK!" I was astonished at how easy she managed to win him over, it is just food and he is willing to stop the video. "Where is it?" Han Yiyeong gave it to him and he scooted off, going out of the frame and she takes control of the phone.

"I'm sorry, Mr Bang for this video but I promise that it wouldn't happen ever again." She apologized and Sehyun comes running towards me getting the phone in his hands, shouting a goodbye as he ends the video, I guess that he was the one who sent the video.

I chuckled as I placed my phone down, at least Sehyun is going to nap at the exact timing that he is supposed to. No one has ever convinced him to go to bed like that, Han Yiyeong did it in one try and she barely knows Sehyun. They have only met each other for a few days and it feels like Han Yiyeong has already mapped out everything that Sehyun likes and dislikes and she has him wrapped around her pinky, he literally does whatever she tells him to do and that has never happened with his own siblings, they struggled so much just to put him to sleep and she did it so easily.

It was as if I saw my ex-wife in her, the one that I loved before we got married... When I am still convinced that she will love me forever...