Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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Have you ever the hots for a man in his 30s? The type that looks like he is a businessman and dresses very smart with the whole blazer thing and slicked back hair? Well, I have just experienced it... A few seconds ago...

It happened to me literally minutes ago, It all began with a car crashing into me on a regular Friday afternoon and at a time and situation that I least expected it.

My day was going really smoothly, I woke up on the right side of the bed, my bedhead was finally looking good and not shaped in a weird way. I had naturally wavy hair and it is one of the body features that I really don't like, while most people would want to have wavy hair all the time, I wanted the opposite but sometimes I don't bother to straighten it.

I had enough food for breakfast all thanks to my mother who cooked it for me before leaving for her daily trip to the market and will only return home 2 hours later. The bus was on time and I had sat down instead of having to stand all the way to my stop where my workplace would be. I also arrived on time and was humming to myself as I have an important thing to do later on in the afternoon.

"Are you going on a date later with Eunwoo?" I stopped whatever I was doing and cleared my throat. "It seems that you look forward to it a lot." A girl of a similar age to me stood at my desk and placed her arm on the small wall separating my desk with the other desks in the office.

My cheeks started heating up and I felt a little awkward. "Is it that obvious?"

"Of course, you always seem very happy when you have your little date with Cha Eunwoo. What are you guys going to do later?"

I just smiled. "Today is our 5th year of being together and I hope that he has prepared some special event for me, last year he surprised me with a candlelit dinner that he cooked by himself just for me."

"Wow..." She let out a cry of envy. "You have such a wonderful boyfriend, what do you think he will doing this year?" I shrugged my shoulders. "Maybe he is going to propose to you?"

"Propose?" I pretended not to know it. It is impossible for us to get married at this time, we haven't saved up enough money to buy an apartment, a big apartment for the many children that we are going to have in the future. "I'm afraid that we can't--"

"Of course you can! You guys have been together for the longest time ever since you met him in university and basically dated him for like 5 years. You must be crazy if you have not thought of marriage at this point."

Of course, I had thought of marriage. My mother has been telling me to get married as he is the best choice and that he will take care of me and I need not worry about anything. I have wanted to get married, of course, but I hope that he will appear with a bouquet of flowers later and kneel down on one knee asking me the most important question of the day.

I drank the café latte that he ordered for me as I chose one book from the shelf and flipped page by page, I looked up at him and he is doing the same ignoring my stares. We are the same type of people that liked quiet places and drinking coffee, so our dates would be at the book café just reading our books and sipping until dinner time where we will proceed to have dinner together at the usual restaurants that we go to, the Chinese restaurant next to the book café, the Japanese restaurant near his place or the Korean restaurant near my house. 
For the past 5 years, we had dated like this including bits and pieces of bedroom action that takes place when we feel like it. Other than that, there is the dating part that the both of us feel really comfortable. "Eunwoo, do you have anything for me??"

He raised an eye in confusion. "For you? Why?"

"Our anniversary, it is already the 5th year." I reminded him. "Don't you remember?"

"I have forgotten about it." He replied nonchalantly. "I'm way too busy with the projects lately." He continued reading his book, he hasn't looked at me in the eye today.

"Soooo... Are we eating dinner later--"He cut me off. "Can we just read and not speak? I'm trying to focus on reading this book."

I had a bad temper and I'm really bad at controlling it. "Do you have to speak to me like this?" I glared at him.

He finally looks at me in the eye and I wasn't a pleasant one. "What do you mean? I always speak like this, don't I?"

"Why are you speaking to me like this? Eunwoo, are you having a bad day?"

His eyes are on my face and he is glaring at me. "Can't you see? You are the one behind it. You are always the one who makes me so angry!" That is the side of him that I don't want to see, his selfish and self-centered side of Cha Eunwoo. The first time I have seen it, it was 2 years ago and the result of our first fight. I hated the way where he blames me for everything else and never about him, he won't ever blame himself. Because of that, we have broken up twice due to his selfishness and I was the one who had to clean up the mess, never was he the one who wanted to get back together. 

I mustered up all the courage to say the three words. "Let's break up..." He softened and held onto my hands. 

"No, YiYeong... You can't do that..." It seems that he is more afraid of breaking up than I am. "Don't... I bring you to where you want to go right now, didn't you say that you want to eat dumplings today--"

I yanked his hand off. "Enough is enough, I had enough of you and your stupid attitude. I was expecting a ring on my left ring finger but I was happy that I don't get a ring, getting married is going to be the worst thing that can happen to me, Han YiYeong's life..." I took my belongings and slung my handbag over my shoulder, leaving the book café without looking back at him. 

I walked aimlessly along the streets without a thought of going anywhere, I couldn't bear the pain of breaking up even though I have already broken up with the same man twice. No one canna break up with anyone without feeling hurt or lost, they will be robots if they can't feel anything.

A car horn broke the silence and then I realized the situation that I was in, a car is dashing on the road and I was standing in the middle of the road, waiting for my death as the car would crash into me. It would be good then since I am single...

An arm pulled me away from it and into his embrace, he looks at me with concern and then to the car. He set me upright before going to the car upfront and cursing them about driving so recklessly and not caring about the pedestrians. He basically told the driver to fuck off and never to appear in front of him anymore. The driver just shook my head, not wanting to get into any trouble and drove off. The guy flashed a middle finger at the reckless driver and walked back to me who still looks very lost and unable to process all the information that happened just now.

All I know is that a hot guy saved my life and I don't even like guys that are older than me. And I had fallen for his charms.