Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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YiYeong

I walked out of the hospital after saying the one sentence that I never wanted to say in front of me but I did say it, I told Mr Bang that I want to resign and leave this job as the babysitter of his children when I don't have a job and I am going to be jobless, I don't even have much savings and I am probably going to starve. I want to go back into the room and tell everyone that I have changed my mind and I would stay on as their babysitter but there is someone who doesn't like me, Bang SeNa wants me out of her life and she thinks that she can control me just because she is Mr Bang's eldest child.

And she did, I didn't want to make her unhappy by staying on and making myself a nuisance to her, I want my job but I don't want other people to be unhappy because I am there in their life. Things could get better with me gone, everything will go back to normal and I would only be there as their neighbour who will occasionally see them once in a while and have a chance of bumping into them at the lift lobby.

I successfully made my way out of the hospital and back to my apartment building before breaking my composure, I can't cry in front of anyone right now and no one should see me crying. It is not a good thing to cry about, it is not like anyone would pity me knowing that I am out of a job and I probably can't find any job for the rest of the month.

I opened the door to my apartment and I gently closed the door, making no sound at all because I don't like to slam my door, especially when I am in a bad mood and nothing is going my way at all. I let out a sigh when I am in the shower, the water touching my body and my tears started flowing down my cheeks, a silent sob escapes my mouth and I continued to stay that way until I got out of the shower, face completely red because I have cried so much and I would never will if not for a day like this.

I stepped out of the shower feeling much better but it doesn't change the fact that I am still jobless and there is no food in my refrigerator, there are some instant noodles stocked up in my cupboard and that will probably be my meal for the next few days before I would receive my pay from Mr Bang for this month. I carried the pot of instant noodles to the coffee table and I sat down on the floor, even though I clearly have a couch but eating while sitting on the floor is a whole new experience.

While I am eating, my free hand was incredibly busy, searching for new openings at kindergartens and childcare centres but clearly, there is no vacancy anywhere else, there are some vacancies in other cities but that would mean that I would either have to move in order to get those jobs and I have only been renting this place for only a few months, the contract can only be terminated if I had stayed there for one year and more.

I blinked as I stared at one vacancy at a kindergarten but it is for a cleaner, that is a job that is too overqualified and it pays even lesser than the babysitting job but it is still money that I can use to feed myself and make ends meet. Should I consider to be a cleaner instead?

I shook my head, there is a lot of people who will need this job more than me and I am just being selfish by stealing this job away from them when I clearly can do something else better than this. I let out a sigh and continued scrolling through all the available job positions until my phone vibrated and it is an incoming call from the person that I don't want to hear from right now, I should have deleted his contact number as soon as I left the hospital but it would be very rude of me to not answer his call, he was still my boss up till a few hours ago and I should answer my boss' phone calls immediately.

But he is not my boss anymore, he is just a fellow neighbour and he is nothing more than that. And my finger betrayed me by swiping right and answering the call from Mr Bang, I could only sigh and put the phone at my ear. "Hello? Yiyeong ssi? Can you talk right now?"

"I am not working for you anymore, Mr Bang. You don't need to call me, and I will delete your contact number right after this." I told him.

"Don't do that, and you are still working under me. I am not going to accept your resignation letter, you can't decide on that alone." His voice was stern and it scared me a little, it is the same time that he uses on his children and probably towards the people at his workplace as well.

"Mr Bang, the reason why I don't want to work for you anymore is because of your children. They don't want me around and I should get away from them so that they will be happy again." I told Mr Bang the real reason why I wanted to resign and I exhaled, trying to control my emotions. "And so I decided to stop working for you, you would probably have to find a baby sitter to replace me."

"Don't get affected by SeNa, she is just going through a phase and you know how teenagers behave, they do weird stuff and often say things that they don't mean at all." He sighed. "So come back and work for me, I will even increase your pay because you are so special to Sehyun and maybe SeJeong. SeNa will have to accept someday."

"Mr Bang, don't you see the problem? You need the mother of your children to make your children happy again, she might be the one who left the family but you can't deny that she has a special place in your children's heart." I told him. "Goodbye, Mr Bang." I hung up the call and I immediately heard a knock on the door.