Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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Yiyeong

"Hi, I am asking if you have any vacancies in your kindergarten?" I asked the person who is currently engaged on the call.

"You are applying for a job position as a childcare teacher right?" She asked me and I nodded my head. "We are currently full and there won't be any vacancy until next year, will you be able to wait till then?"

I looked at the calendar that was on my laptop, it is empty for next year because I don't have anything to do and I don't have anything planned as well, I am a jobless person who lives day by day using the savings that she has from her last job and I am running out of that money little by little.

At this rate, I am going to be homeless by next month because I am not earning enough money to support me and pay rent for my apartment, and I don't want to tell my mother that I am running out of money and I am also out of a job as well. She will force me to move in back together with her because I have proved her point that I am not able to survive out there on my own and needed her to raise me even though I am already an adult at the age of 25.

"Will you guarantee that I will be hired by your kindergarten by next year?" I asked the person and the line went silent, I knew that she didn't have a definite answer and she is only saying it because she doesn't know what to say to me. "If you don't have an answer, I think that I will continue to find somewhere else for a better job. Thank you for taking my call and listening to me speak to you for the past 10 minutes." I hung up the call and I let out a loud sigh, I have just got rejected again and it is not the first time that it has happened. Have I made the right decision of leaving my well-paying job for something else?

If only I hadn't resigned from my job, I would have still been earning a lot of money every month but I would have to face an ex-boyfriend who works in the same department as I am and I would have to work with him as well. But the thing is that I will not be jobless and that is the problem that I am facing right now in this situation, I thought that it would be rather easy for me to find a job as a childcare teacher because there are a lot of childcare centres available everywhere and the demand is high but why is so hard for me to find a job?

I deeply sighed and I searched for babysitting jobs because it is the one job that I have done up till now, with my 2 weeks experience as a babysitter for Mr Bang's family, I can be confident that I can handle kids because I have experienced taking care of Bang Sehyun who is the perfect age for a kindergarten student. And I have taken care of Mr Bang's older children SeJeong and SeNa who is in middle school and high school respectively, I think that I can handle children of any age quite well.

But the thing is that it would be useless if I am not able to find a job, I would have to move back home at some point if it still doesn't work for me. My stomach growled and I knew that it is time for me to go down to the convenience store to have my meal, it had become a daily routine for me now that I am unemployed once again.

I got dressed in something more appropriate to be seen outside and I made my way down to the convenience store, the staff looked at me as I made my way to the microwave food aisle and then made my purchase, he is not even greeting me because he sees me all the time. I put in my food in the microwave oven and pressed a few buttons to start the process and I went to the coffee machine where I made my delicious cup of coffee, it tastes exactly like those coffees that you can get from high-class cafés but the only difference is that it costs so much cheaper compared to the café's pricing.

I made my way to the table that I usually take that is by the window because it is nice to look out at the scenery and look at people walking on the street, going about their day. It is the only thing that is good about this convenience store, and I don't mind working here if I need the money but for now, I am going to be here as a customer, a loyal customer because I like everything here.

A child was sitting at the table and I was about to ask him to move to another table when he turned around and I saw his face, my jaw dropped and I nearly dropped my food as well but I didn't which was good. "Bang Sehyun, what the hell are you doing here for?"

"Yiyeong Omma, I have finally found you. I missed you so much!" He suddenly bursts into tears and I placed my food at the table before wrapping my arms to hug me, I have missed that little kid as well now that I realized it.

"What are you doing here all alone? Where is your older sister and brother? Where is your father?" I asked him, there is no way that he is told to make his way home after school, something must have happened.

"I was waiting for you but you didn't come to fetch me, so I went out to find you. And I got lost but I found you now, where did you go?" He asked me. "Can you come back and take care of me? I can't live without you, Yiyeong Omma." He said. How am I supposed to tell him that I don't want to work for his family anymore because of his father?