Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

오십 육

Yiyeong

Yongguk ssi patted me on the shoulder. "I will be outside if you need me." He said to me before dragging his kids out of the cafe, they were getting a little rowdy and the customers all looked at me like we are in a soap drama and it is all because the ex-wife wanted to talk to me alone. Sena got all excited and she wanted to spectate the entire time while Sejeong who as usual wanted to get out of here and told his older sister that she is public nonsense and that made her yell at him.

So Yongguk ssi had to drag them out of the store and I could finally talk with the ex-wife but I don't want to talk to the ex-wife, she seems a little scary or maybe it is just because she is the ex-wife and she is the mother of those children. But she looks like Sena, Sena is exactly the spitting image of her mother, they are both tall and elegant looking people and they are so sassy that no one can handle them that easily.

And I can't deny that I am a little nervous being at the same table as her, now she knows what I look like and I don't know if she is going to talk about my looks and talk about the fact that I am 10 years younger than her. She was already halfway through elementary school when I was born and she has experienced everything in her life and I am just a baby to her.

"You look like you could have a drink, go and buy a drink and add it to my tab." She said to me. "It is my treat."

"Are you sure about that? Because it seems like you are going to look at me differently if I allow you to pay for my drink." She shrugged her shoulders and she says that I can buy for myself as well and I decided to get an iced latte with my own money and I came back to the table.

"So..." She looked at me. "You are just 25 years old and you are about to get married to someone who is 10 years older, he can be your youngest uncle."

"Is that anything wrong with that? I am not a minor, I went through high school and university as well and I hold a degree in childhood education." I said to her. "What did you even do in your life then?"

"I am a freelance editor, I mostly work at home." She said to me. "What do you do for a living then?"

I have already lost because I am unemployed and currently looking for a job and she has a job even though she works freelance but it is still a job and she is making money from it, she had already accomplished so much and I am just starting. How would I even compare to her?

"Yiyeong ssi?" She called for me and I finally looked at her, I know that she is going to laugh at me because I am jobless and I am just going to be a housewife when I get married to Yongguk ssi. "Are things hard for you? How many companies have you tried reaching out to?"

I was confused for a moment and she repeats herself once more and then I realize that she is not mocking me for being jobless but she is showing her concern about me not being able to get a job. "You are not mocking me for being unemployed?" I asked her.

Her eyes widen. "What? Why would you even think about that?"

"You are an accomplished woman at this age and I am just a regular jobless woman who doesn't have a job and I am going to marry Yongguk ssi without any money, don't you think that I am being ridiculous?" I said to her. "We indeed have a 10-year difference but those 10 years is a lot, and I am being crazy for wanting to marry someone without getting my career stabilized first."

She shook her head. "This is where you are wrong, Yiyeong ssi. It doesn't matter one bit and I know that Yongguk doesn't mind that, he is not some arranged marriage where he must marry you for his company to survive. He is marrying you for who you are, he doesn't care if you have a job as long as you care for him and his children who are also going to be part of your family as well."

She is right, Yongguk ssi doesn't think that I am a disappointment to him, he wouldn't even want to marry me if he cared so much about that. He did try to get me a job and I was ungrateful for that, thinking that it is none of my business but he wants me to be happy with my life as well. Being a housewife would be fine for me and I will be able to dedicate all of my time to taking care of them and my family but there is nothing to that, everything revolves around the family and I will just spend the rest of my life like that and I will not be happy because I have not achieved what I wanted in my life.

"You think that it is okay for me to get a job while being married to Yongguk ssi and having 3 kids to raise?" She nodded her head. "It is great but the children will not have anyone to be taken care of and I will be so busy."

"I raised all of them by working from home and all of them turn out fine, even Sena who is extremely sassy but those kids are going to do just fine." She said. "You just need to get a job if you need to and make sure that you will love Yongguk more than I do which I know that you will do an excellent job."

"Come by and visit the kids sometimes, they will forgive you because you are always their mother." I looked back at the rest of them outside the cafe and I took out the invitation, passing it to her. "You can come if you want to, JunHee ssi. You can throw it away all you want but I would like you to come to the wedding."