Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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Yiyeong

"See you later, Sehyun!" I waved my hand at the youngest family member of the Bang family, the family that I am working for the next 2 weeks before my contract is up. It will be 2 weeks of seeing Sehyun before I have to stop seeing him and taking care of him on a daily basis, even though we are still neighbours, I will not get to see him that often because I will be busy with my own life.

There are still 14 days before I stop becoming his babysitter and it is starting to make me feel emotional as the day gets nearer, I can't believe that the contract is going to be up and I haven't found a job yet. It is hard finding a job when you are not that qualified to take care of children, and I don't even have a degree for it compared to the rest of my classmates who pursued further education on early childhood education.

I feel like I should go back to school to take on that degree but it would just mean that I will have an even lower chance of getting a job because I will be 3 years older than I am now, no one would want to hire a 28-year-old even though I am a fresh graduate. Age is the thing that really matters in this industry and I feel like I am already losing out to every childhood teacher in this world because I haven't gotten a job and I am here being a baby sitter as a part-time job, and it is not going to financially support for the next 3 months.

But I am determined to find a job position at a childcare centre no matter what, it is my passion and I feel like I can handle taking care of children very well based on the experience of taking care of Bang Sehyun but I couldn't say a thing for Bang SeJeong and Bang Sena. They are both teenagers who have a mind of their own and I can't really control how they think and do things, I was a teenager once not too long ago so I would underhand how they feel and act around people.

I wished that I could turn back time to be a teenager again so that I can have a chance of making my life decisions more wisely and carefully, I could even make the choice of not dating Cha Eunwoo and studying in the same course just for the sake of being with him all the time, in that way I would have studied early childhood education and not land myself in this kind of a situation where I have no actual job and I am going to be jobless in the next 2 weeks and I will have to live off instant noodles.

It sounds like it is the worst life ever but I am not making things up at all, if I have found a job by then, nothing bad would happen to me and I don't have to earn instant noodles just to save money. I let out a sigh and I made my way back to their apartment where I caught sight of someone waving her hand at me frantically across the street, she looked kind of familiar and I squinted my eyes to see clearer.

"Han Yiyeong!" I gasped, it is my high school classmate Kim Jisoo who spent most of her high school days with me behaving like an idiot and playing around all the time and not listening in class, she is like a sister from another mother and she is one of my closest friends that I have made in my life.

I have not seen her ever since high school because she moved to the city of Daegu for a better life with the love of her life and she hasn't returned back to Seoul, it has been years since I have seen her and she hasn't changed a single time, well except for her tummy that seemed a little too big for a 25-year-old woman.

"It has been so long since I have seen you and you looked even prettier than before, what did you even do?" She asked me after we have ordered our food in the restaurant, I still have a few hours to go before Sehyun is done with school.

"I broke up with Cha Eunwoo, I figured out that he wasn't the right one for me after all. It was the best decision that I have made all year." I told her and she gasped in shock.

"Are you serious? You guys dated for 5 years and you just ended the relationship with him, how did you even cope with the pain?" She asked.

"I moved to a new neighbourhood and lived on my own, it is a new feeling of doing things on your own and deciding how you want your house to be like."

She nodded. "It is good that you are doing fine without him, what are you working as right now?"

"I am considered jobless right now because I have a hard time finding a job to a childhood teacher and no one wants to hire a 25-year-old, it sucks to feel old around all the young people." I pouted. "What are you doing in Seoul anyways? I thought that you were based in Daegu all along for the past few years and you were doing fine there."

"My husband Taehyung decided that it is best that he expand his business here in Seoul after having a branch in Daegu, it is also a great place for my children to study in. You know that my daughter is 4 years old and she is schooling in the kindergarten just a few buildings away from here."

I had to put a hand to stop her because I am totally lost over what she is trying to say. "You got married and you have a daughter? How did that even happen in just 5 years?" I am 25 years old and I am newly single and jobless at the same time while my dear friend has a successful career and she is married and has a child when she is the same age as me.

"It just happens, Taehyung proposed to me a few months after we moved to Daegu and we got married the following month and my daughter is born in the same year, and I am having another child right now." She strokes her tummy. "The doctor said that it is a boy but I would like to wait till it comes out of me, it could be a girl as well."

"Wow..." That is the only thing that I can say at this moment, this only proves that I am living my life a little too slow than my friends and I am still at square one while they have all that they wanted when they are the same age as me. How can life be this unfair to me?

"Don't be too envious of my life, my life isn't the best life that you can have. It is tiring taking care of children and taking care of your own children is twice as exhausting because it is your children, don't get married too early and have children too early. It is bad especially if you want to explore the world." She sighed. "But at least I can have my family to depend on when I need their help and I will be there for them when they need my help."

I smiled at her words, I am still young to say that I am old for the industry. "Can I be the godmother of your unborn child? I feel like I am going to be single for a while and be rich. Do you have any jobs at your childcare centre back in Daegu?"

"Don't you worry, I have a branch here in Seoul as well and I will definitely hire you as my employee. I will be there to help you when you need help, don't hesitate to ask." And we spent the whole morning catching up with each other and I told her everything about my current job, where I am tasked with taking care of 3 very weird children of different ages and their boss being a very handsome and charming man.