Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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SeNa

I sighed deeply as I looked up at the ceiling, I hated the hospital so much but yet I am laying down on the hospital bed right now. I don't like the feeling of being in a hospital and everything that happens inside a hospital. Call me paranoid or what but I just hate the fact that we have to get confined in a room with 4 white walls and beeping machines in the surroundings, it is the most horrible feeling in the world.

And because of that, I have tried my best to not get admitted into the hospital or even get close to it. Even so, I have been into the hospital on 2 separate occasions to meet my 2 younger brothers when they were first born in the world but other than that, I have never entered the hospital  and I have never wanted to be in the hospital.

It gives off a lonely feeling and I am feeling that exact feeling right now, I am being admitted in a one-person ward and I have not seen anyone enter the room at all, not even the doctors and nurses who are supposed to be making their rounds almost all the time. None of my family members is here as well even though I clearly know that one of them sent me here and went home first, it could be my younger brother who is just 3 years younger than me but he is too young to be signing any documents so it is not him.

It couldn't be my father as well because he is still working and he couldn't have made it back in time just to discover that I had passed out and brought me to the hospital as soon as possible, and they are all the family members who are able to make important decisions. It couldn't be Han Yiyeong who brought me to the hospital right?

The door opened and I saw a figure enter the room, the room brightens at the flick of the switch and I saw my father, so it is my father as I have expected. He looked at me and then started walking towards me with a grim facial expression on his face, he doesn't look that happy and I guess that it is because of me.

"How are you feeling now? Better?" He sat down on the couch that is next to me.

"I feel a lot better now. Are you the one who sent me here?" I asked him just to be sure.

He shook his head and I frowned. "Yiyeong ssi sent you here, she was the one who discovered that you had collapsed and she didn't hesitate to bring you to the hospital. She had quite a shock earlier and I sent her home just now, she should be reaching home soon."

"Why must it be Han Yiyeong?" I said to him. "And why are you being so nice to her? She is just a babysitter for goodness sake."

"Bang Sena, don't be disrespectful to Yiyeong ssi." He raised his voice slightly. "Yiyeong ssi is the babysitter that I have hired to take care of the three of us and you have disrespected her from the day that she started working, she is 8 years older than you and that gives you no excuse to be this rude to her."

"But I don't need anyone to take care of me, I am already 17 years old and I am not a little kid anymore." I told him, I deserve to have my own freedom because I am not a little kid anymore. I just don't understand why is my father still treating me like a little kid I was years ago.

"And yet you collapsed and fainted because you were so obsessed with looking skinny and beautiful, that is not what a mature young adult does." He said to me. "How can I treat you like a adult when you don't even behave like one? You certainly deserved this for not listening to my words and going on this stupid diet that landed you in this mess, tell me what you did this for."

"I did this for myself, I want people to know me as the perfect Bang Sena that never fails to disappoint anyone. And it is very common to go on a diet these days, everyone does this to become happier and I want to be happier."

"You don't need to be on a diet to be happier, you are perfect the way you are and I don't mind if you were to be obese or skinny, I just don't want you to ruin your own body like that." He sighed with disbelief. "You are to eat normally after you get discharged, you can't skip meals ever again. Do that if you want to stay here again, you wouldn't want to because it is miserable to stay in the hospital all by yourself. Better thank Yiyeong ssi when you get out of here, you would be in a worse situation that you are in if not for her."

"She is just lucky to have seen me, if I had a choice, I wouldn't want her to send me to the hospital. Why doesn't she leave me alone?" I mumbled to myself but I then realized that my father had heard everything that I have said.

"Bang Sena, why are you being so disrespectful to Yiyeong ssi? She could be your older sister if she were to be related to you." He crossed his arms at me. "I don't like you being rude to Yiyeong ssi, she is also our neighbor for goodness sake."

"Because she reminds me of Omma and I don't like it." There I said it, my real reason for hating Han Yiyeong ever since I met her for the first time. She may not look like the mother who gave birth to me but she had the same character as my birth mother, it is as if my mother's soul is in her body which explains why she acted just like my mother. "Doesn't she remind you of your ex-wife? The one that left you for some bastard and left you in charge of the three of us, she is one pathetic woman and now there is another woman who is exactly like her."