Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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Yiyeong

I explained everything that I could to the doctor who is examining Bang Sena, my boss's eldest daughter and she is not in a very good condition right now. She had a fever for the entire day and it showed no signs of ever going away and I was told to bring her to the hospital right now if her fever doesn't subside by the end of the first day, and she didn't feel better after the first day but I have never expected that she would collapse like that, scaring the hell out of me.

I am glad that I tried to wake her up after I am done with making her dinner and placing it on the table, I knew that she didn't have the appetite to have her food because she was sick and I would have to force her to eat a little so that she would have the energy to get better. Little did I know that she would collapse and I would have to send her to the hospital right now, at 7.30 pm where I am finally done with making dinner.

Who knows how long she had passed out for? It could have been a few hours or just an hour ago, I can't possibly tell at all and it is making the doctor a little frustrated at me. "Keep your cool down for a little, Madam. I know that it is a little too sudden and scary for you to be handling all of this but we need to know some details in order to know more about her diagnosis."

But I just couldn't calm down, it is kind of my fault that Sena is in this state right now, I should've ignored her words about leaving her alone and popping in every hour to check on her, I shouldn't give her too much freedom to do her own things and allowed her to be in this situation. It is all my fault, I didn't even qualify to be a babysitter or even a human being, I am really a failure.

"I am Bang Sena's father, may I know what is going on with my daughter?" I heard a voice and I turned around, Mr Bang has arrived at the hospital and he is definitely going to give me a dressing down for not taking good care of his sick daughter.

"Mr Bang, your daughter Bang Sena is now in a slightly serious condition because she isn't showing any signs of regaining consciousness at all and I need to know the full details of her condition, your wife is not in a great state and she hasn't been able to give me a proper answer due to that." The doctor told him and he turned around to face me, he placed his hands on both of my shoulders.

"Do you know exactly how long did Sena pass out for?" He asked me, using his reassuring tone that I wouldn't get beaten up if he is not satisfied with my answer.

I shook my head. "I don't know, she is already unconscious when I came to give her dinner. It could be a few hours or less than an hour." I told him everything that I know about Sena's condition. "She didn't have her lunch either, it was left untouched when I went to her room."

Thanks to Mr Bang, the whole issue is resolved in an instant and the doctor reassured the both of us that they would try their hardest to bring down her temperature to normal by tonight and they would do anything to save Sena. They have to save Sena no matter what or I don't know how to even answer to Mr Bang, he could even fire me after all of this have been resolved, after all, I have done something that I shouldn't be doing to a child, neglecting Sena and assuming that she would be able to do everything on her own.

My legs turned to jelly and Mr Bang brought me over to the benches to take a seat, I feel so afraid that something bad might happen to Sena and it is definitely my fault that something like this has happened, I am not suited to be a babysitter and today has been a perfect example for that. I should just return back to my old job, at least I am still familiar with the job scope of the job position and there will still be companies who will hire me for that job.

"I am so sorry, Mr Bang. It is all of my faults that Sena is now in critical condition, I am totally not qualified to be your babysitter and I think that you should fire me and hire someone else who is better than me." I remembered that it is the only thing that emerged in my mind from the moment that I saw Mr Bang, he is going to fire me for real and he wouldn't let anyone who is not up for the job to continue working for him.

"Don't apologize for that, it is not your fault. Sena is in the wrong as well, it is because she didn't have her meals regularly and that has affected her health, you have seen the way she often skips her meals and she would pick at her food all the time, it is no wonder that she would collapse like that." Mr Bang said with a deep sigh. "I just don't get why is she even undergoing a diet when she is still going through puberty, she needs to have all the nutrients to grow taller and she is preventing herself to be healthier and she is doing harm to her own body. She definitely deserves everything that she has been doing to her own body."

"But still I failed to look after her when she is clearly sick, I didn't pop in often to check in on her and I assumed that she would take her meals regularly without me watching over her. I am such a bad babysitter and for that, you should fire me because I am not the babysitter that you should have." I covered my face with my hands as I burst out crying.

I felt a hand on my back and Mr Bang was patting me on my back to make me feel better but it doesn't make me feel any better, I went full-on crying because I was really scared that he will fire me and I would become jobless and I might have to move back to my parent's place. He then pulled me into his embrace where he comforted me and I cried as he was there for me, patting me on my back and I got to smell his scent as well, it is such a nice scent and I can't get it out of my head now.