Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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SeNa

"Breakfast is ready!" I let out an annoyed groan as I heard the familiar but not as familiar voice in the dining room, I still can't believe that she is here again. I can't believe that it has only been 2 weeks ever since my father hired the neighbour next door to take care of me, especially Sehyun who is my youngest sibling.

I wouldn't have been so annoyed if she is ordered to only take care of Sehyun when my father is not around but my father actually wanted her to take care of me and my younger brother, Bang SeJeong when we are already teenagers and we are totally capable of taking care of ourselves. We might not be the best at cooking but I am able to whip up something simple because I forced myself to learn how to cook ever since my mother left the family a year ago, I don't need anyone other than my own father to take care of me and even take care of my meals.

I am already 17 years old and I am totally capable of taking care of myself, if I don't eat at home, I could also use the allowance that my father gives me every month to feed myself outside. I should have some independence at this age but my father still thinks of me as a child and I hate that, I hated being treated like a child and being so obedient and only listen and not act on my own actions.

If I were to be the same age as Sehyun now, I would have just obeyed whatever Han Yiyeong wants me to do or say because I am helpless as a toddler and I can't do anything on my own but I am not a toddler, I am a teenager and I am going to be an adult in a few years' time, there is no need to treat me like a child anymore. Because of that, I started to hate my father a little because he just allows Han Yiyeong to do anything she wants to do and he is not even controlling her at all.

She is only 25 years old and she only recently became an adult, and she only has an 8 year age gap apart from me which makes her an older sister to me, and that means that there is not much difference between the two of us. If she can be treated like an adult, why can't I? Why is life being so unfair?

"SeNa, are you awake? Breakfast is ready!" I turned away from the noise and I buried myself in the bedsheets, I don't want to listen to her, whatever she says is ridiculous and I would be an idiot for listening to her. Why must I eat breakfast? If I don't have an appetite in the morning, I will not eat and Han Yiyeong always tries to force me to eat breakfast even if I don't want to.

I want to have that perfect figure that supermodels have and it is not as easy as it seems, even though I am tall enough and the looks to be a model, I don't have the body for it and that is bad. Many models go on a diet to achieve the look that they wanted and it is not easy at all, it takes time and effort and it is easy to fail a diet when temptation kicks in and you give up on it because you can't take it anymore and revert back to your original diet.

And I am not like that, I will do anything that I do to lose weight and become the perfect person to be a model, I will definitely get scouted by a lot of modelling agencies if I had lost weight successfully. But this bitch is standing in my way to stop me from achieving what I wanted and I hated her for it.

"SeNa! You have to get up now or you will be late for school, and you will not be able to eat breakfast." That's what I wanted anyway, not being able to eat breakfast in the morning and go to school. I dragged my body out of my bed and proceeded to wash up, making sure that I have done everything right in my beauty routine that I turn out as pretty every single morning.

I came out of my room after changing into my school uniform and I have done my hair as well, keeping it in place while looking beautiful at the same time. I sling my schoolbag over my right shoulder and I was greeted by Han Yiyeong who is currently pouring out milk into glasses, she held a smile at me. "There is still a lot of time to have breakfast, there are toasted bread and cereal." She informed me about the food that she had prepared for me but I am totally not interested in it at all.

"I am not hungry and I will be going to school now," And I turn towards my father who is leisurely reading his newspapers and drinking his cup of black coffee. "Can you be done with breakfast in the next 10 minutes?"

"There is still time and there is no need for you to get to school so early, it is not like it is too far from home." My father looks up at me. "And you could use the time to have your breakfast as well, you are not appreciating Aunt YiYeong's efforts to make breakfast for the entire family every single morning, she comes so early in the morning just to get slammed by something like this. Would she be happy hearing that?"

I just don't get why the entire family is fine with her being in the household, listening to what she has to say and letting her do whatever she wants to do in this household. "Did I ask for that? She is just a babysitter and she is in charge of taking care of Sehyun, I don't need to be taken care of and I am capable of taking care of myself. And she is not like my mother, she doesn't have the right to tell me to do things. And I hate her a lot." And I get a slap on the face by my own father, he has never landed a hand on and he is doing it because I just insulted someone who is not part of the family and she is only the babysitter.