Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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SeJeong

I swear that I have not found anyone as unique as Han YiYeong noona, she is nothing like all the other adults out there in the world and she doesn't tell any lies either. She is such a unique individual that made me realize what I was doing was wrong, I knew that it is wrong to sneak up on my mother's car but I had to do it, I had no choice.

This is the only way where I could see my mother and I missed her a lot, I wanted to know if she is doing well with her life and without my father by her side, is she happy with what she has right now. I am curious about everything that is related to my mother because my father has told us nothing about her ever since she left the family a year ago and I have last seen her a year ago, I wished that they hadn't divorced each other.

I thought that my parents loved each other a lot, they frequently say that they love each other and showed displays of their attention towards each other in front of me but in reality, they have been ignoring and giving each other the cold shoulder for a very long time. It is very subtle and it takes a lot of time and effort to notice it but once I had cracked the code behind their hidden broken relationship, I can never look at them the same way ever again.

None of my siblings knows that our parents have a broken relationship that has been hidden for the past few years, specifically after SeHyun was born and their relationship has been strained since then. And when they decided to fight about their marriage, I wasn't surprised at all, in fact, I was glad that they have finally fought after spending many years in denial that their marriage is over, they fought over 6 months and then they ended their marriage in the worst way ever.

The reason why they fought is that my mother's love for my father had faded in the last few years in their marriage and she was seeing someone else in secret and my father found out about it quite early on, that was the trigger that made them fight. I heard most of these fights because I am the type to stay up late at night and my siblings would be asleep by then, Sehyun would be sleeping because he is still a toddler and SeNa noona would always be occupied with her nightly calls with her girlfriend and sometimes her boyfriend that she tells no one about and she doesn't give a damn about anything else other than to look pretty and perfect all the time.

And I was there on the day where they had their last fight, it has been a year since they happened and I clearly remembered everything that they had said to each other before my father would announce that he wanted a break and then stormed out of the room and I ran back to my bedroom before they could find out that I was eavesdropping on them. I had told no one about this, including Yiyeong Noona who is the first time to know about this but she doesn't know every detail about it, because I didn't want them to get hurt from knowing the truth, especially Sehyun, I can't let him know that his mother abandoned all of us for some random guy who is somehow anyway better than my father.

If anyone had to know about this, I would make sure that no one would know about this, we have already been hurt by this knee, why would we want to get hurt by the truth again? And plus, I don't want to see my father get hurt again by some woman who pretends to love him and then breaks his heart like it is nothing. He had spent getting married for the past 17 years with my mother because he really loved my mother and wanted to spend the rest of his life with her but little did he know that his dream wouldn't come true and he was a divorced man at the age of 35.

And Yiyeong Noona is the only one who understands how I feel but she had let go of her past, her mother has finally found happiness although it took a while but I will never let my father marry another woman and allow her to be in our lives, she is going to hurt him like how our mother did to him and then leave him like it didn't mean anything at all.

I arrived at a company building and made my way inside, the receptionist greeted me as I walked past them to go to the lift lobby and I pressed the button in the lift which brought me up to the highest level of the company. I walked past all of the people in there and they all gave me a nod, they all know me well and they respect me as an individual.

I opened the door which says 'Bang Yongguk' on the nameplate and he is indeed sitting there at the table, doing his work diligently and he looked up, looking shocked to see me standing right in front of him. "SeJeong? Why are you here? Aren't you supposed to be training right now?"

"Training got cancelled at the last minute and I had nothing to do anyway so I thought of coming here hoping to have lunch with you, have you had lunch yet?"

He still got those doubtful eyes but he believed me anyway, he wouldn't think that his son is lying to him. "Where do you want to have lunch at?" He got up from his seat, retrieving his blazer from the rack.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know, why not you choose? I want to eat some grownup food sometimes and your choices are amazing all the time, dad." I have to make sure that you will not meet her, she is the one who hurt you and makes you change into a different person... I want the fun-loving father in my life again...