Divorced // bang yongguk (#26)

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YiYeong

I dumped the papers in the waste bin on my way out of the room, I looked back and the walls, the children printed on the walls looked as if they are laughing at me. They are laughing at me because I failed the job interview at this place, that I can't work at this place at all.

I thought that it is one of the best childcare centres and based on my past job experiences, I could easily get a job. I worked in a company for at least 5 years, working with children as young as 7 to help their grades get up and I can't get a job at a childcare centre.

On the job advert that I found online, it doesn't require me to have any experience working with children and so I thought that I would have a high chance of getting in since I work in a similar field of work. They wanted real professionally trained childcare teachers, they don't want a half-assed ex-tutor who recently got over a relationship that lasted the same thing as my job experience.

I should've just stayed at the same company if I have known that it would be so hard for me to find a job at this age. Why did I even leave the company for? Right, for a better future and to leave him for good, never wanting to see him again.

Then I should have just studied something related to early childhood education if I have known that I would make a career switch all of a sudden but I didn't, I followed Cha Eunwoo to do what he loved doing. I didn't think that I would hate my job there so much until the day I ended things, that was when I knew that I had to get away from the company as far as possible.

How am I so foolish to follow him like a puppy? Because I was so in love with him that I could literally live without him, I had to be in the same place as him at all times and that resulted in me taking up a job as a tutor when my dream is to be able to take care of adorable toddlers all day long.

I'm so glad that I ended things with him, if not I would have to spend the rest of my life being his eternal girlfriend and being stuck in the job that I don't like. I don't even like to persuade children that they have to ditch their phones in order for thrit grades to go up.

I let out a long sigh as I exited the building, my eyes looking at another advert on my phone about another position at the childcare centre. I would love to go there right away but it is all the way in Daejeon and I live in Seoul right now, it would take me forever to travel to DaeJoon every morning and back to Seoul in the evenings.

It is not like I have a driving license nor a reliable boyfriend who has a car to drive me around every day to and forth to my workplace, the previous guy didn't have a car. He was so stingy that he didn't bring me out to the cinemas at all because he thinks that it is a waste of time. Then what do we do on our dates? We read books, all day long.

I felt my stomach growl and I decided that it was time to have my early dinner when it is technically still 4 pm, the perfect time to have some tea time with a few girlfriends and chat about life except that I don't have a lot of friends and they are all busy with their jobs and relationships. Sucks to be me who is still finding for a new job while my other friends are already satisfied with their lives...

I walked along the streets of a shopping district and searched for places that are affordable and the food tastes delicious, that is the most important thing of all. But sadly, the places that I mentioned are all the high-end restaurants, if not the popular places that you would need to queue for a very long time and by the time it is your turn, you would have died of starvation.

I wouldn't die if I were to indulge myself in convenience store food... It is near my apartment and I would need to wait for any queues, if not I can just cook ramyeon noodles at times and enjoy the rest of my day cuddling on the couch being a jobless person. That doesn't sound bad at all.

I walked back to my neighbourhood when my mind was set on eating extremely unhealthy food even though my mother objects to me eating ramyeon noodles, it is oily and could cause harm to my health but I couldn't care much now, I would rather become an ugly old woman than to meet someone like Cha EunWoo again.

I pushed the doors of the convenience store which causes the bell to ring, welcoming my arrival to the store. I immediately walked to the instant noodles section and picked up the brand and flavour that I want to eat as well as grabbing a few more so that I don't need to make my way down to the store so often.

"Ahjumma, I told that I don't want this!" I heard a kid complain. "I want the Pororo one."

That voice sounded very familiar... It is from the ice cream aisle where a woman in her 30s and a toddler were at, he was grumbling about the ice cream that he wanted and the lady didn't want to.

"But your siblings want those and it is more affordable if you buy in threes." The lady calmly explained to the toddler who clearly didn't want to hear. They only know that they have to eat that and not think about money matters.

"But I don't want!" The child is now yelling. "Buy me that one right now!"

"Sehyun-ah, listen to me." I saw something that she did to the toddler which I didn't like seeing, she pinched the little boy by the arm. He is that guy that I took care of yesterday, the boy who loved bananas and couldn't stop crying when I asked him about his mother.

I immediately went to the two of them. "May I know if it is your son?"

She gave a glare. "Why are you being so nosy? It is none of your business."

I ignored her and went to the toddler who is close to crying. "Bang Sehyun, remember me? I am the lady next door."

He took one look at me and immediately let go of her hand and hugged my legs tightly. "Noona, I don't want to be here!"

She isn't his mother, she was someone dangerous and I should save him from her.