restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 44

Brian : Billie closed his eyes and put his head half asleep on my lap. I rubbed his back gently, and he relaxed. I gave him a small massage of his shoulders and neck. "Is that okay?" I asked tenderly. He growled in agreement and snuggled into my lap. I carefully put my hand under his shirt and massaged his back. Billie seemed to enjoy every touch. *He's so cute* I couldn't take my eyes off him. He looked so peaceful. His body wasn't that hot anymore, the fever seemed to go down a bit because of the pills. He closed his eyes in pleasent while I was massaging him. I wasn't naive, I knew he wasn't thinking of me. But I didn't care... to be near him was enough for me. Billie crawled off my lap and tried to take off his shirt. I noticed how my heart got a little push. "It's too warm..." he muttered. I carefully helped him out of his shirt, and this time he lied with his back on my lap. Billie wasn't the most muscular man, but who cares? His body was perfect in its own way. I smoothly stroked his beautiful chest and noticed how he got goose bumps. My hand went carefully down to his stomach. *Control yourself Brian*. With every touch I looked Billie in his face. His eyes were closed and his face relaxed. His heart pulsed every time my fingers touched his bare skin. He continued to growl and enjoyed every touch. "How are you?" I breathed carefully into his ear. "Better," he muttered. He wasn't really interested in a conversation. He seemed as if he longs for love and tenderness. For someone who takes him in his arms, cuddles or just massages him. Even if I know that he doesn't love me, it was a pleased feeling to see how much he was enjoying this moment as much as I did. I didn't want to go too far... in the end, it would be strange between us again, and I wanted to avoid that. There is nothing more painful than him ignoring me. That's something that always tears me apart. But I couldn't help it... his delicate rose lips were too tempting. I leaned forward and kissed his forehead. He didn't move, but his face was still calm. I continued and walked down with my lips to his cheek and caressed carefully down his neck. Billie's body shook excited with every touch of mine...