restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 81

Billie: I didn't know what to do.After breakfast I went back upstairs and layed down for a moment.It was almost 10 am.We had to leave to be on time for the interview with David Letterman.My head was buzzing with thoughts.On the one hand, I knew Mike was right.I love Adie, but she chose Charlie... she has to give me the chance to look ahead.But on the other hand, it wasn't Adie who called me.It was her grandmother.I would be lying to myself if I said that I ain't worried.I was always worried about her... I wanted to know what was going on with Adie.Evelyn sounded very desperate on the phone.It would make me collapse again when I see her.I couldn't bear to have her so close to me again and know that she was not my girl... But what should I do? That was how love was.Even if it hurts, you can't stop loving this one special person and always want to protect her.There was no other way... I noticed how restless I was.My hands were shaking with fear.But I need to know what was going on with her. I can't pretend this conversation didn't exist. Without thinking much further, I threw some clothes into a backpack and went back down to the others. When I came down, everyone looked at me with great concern. I almost stormed past them. "Tell Bill to cancel all our appointments for 2 days. I need to see her." "Billie wait!!" called Mike. "Wait, what?" some of our crew members said confused. "Billie, you shouldn't drive. She'll just hurt you again. Please, brother. Let her go..." begged Mike. "You know I can't. And I don't want to. YES, she hurts me. Over and over again. But I love her, Mike... I need to know that she is fine. Please don't stop me. I will come back as soon as possible." I went towards the door and noticed Brian who stopped Mike from running after me. "Let him go Mike, he has to sort it out with her and find out if everything is alright with her, otherwise he won't be able to look ahead..." I heard Brian whisper sadly. In the background they were all Kevin, Tre, Brian... and all looked at me hurt after my confession of love for Adrienne... I hated it that I kept hurting everyone. Everyone thinks I enjoy being an asshole. No, I didn't. I was just unable to love...