restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 36

Tre: I wasn't sure how to start.For a long time I closed my eyes to how I treated her.It was only through Billie's rejection that I realized how inconsiderate I was towards her.Billie treated me like dirt when it came to love.As a best friend, he was irreplaceable, but as soon as it got into more, he was cold towards me.He had always hurt me.And now I realized that I did exactly the same with Sara.I took out my frustration on her.That was wrong... she loved me dearly.And even if she would never believe me, I knew that a part of me loved her too. "Sara, I have to apologize to you.I made a lot of mistakes and was disrespectful to you.A few hours ago I made probably the biggest mistake in 10 years... but this one opened my eyes. I don't want to belittle it, it was wrong, and I feel horrible. Mostly because I did hurt you again..." Sara: "Tre, what do you mean?" I asked worried. I did know that face... He always looked at me like that when he did hurt me again because of Billie.

Tre took my hand and looked at me pleadingly: "I want to spare you the details. But you know that I can't lie to you, you're too important to me. Billie and I got closer." Sara tried to tear her hand away, but I held her pleadingly. "Nothing happened!! It was a huge mistake. I was hurt... Mike & Brian are on their way to see Adie. I can't stand the thought of seeing them every day as a happy couple again around me. I don't know what I was up to. I probably just wanted to prove to myself that he loves me... that he cares about me. But he showed me clearly that it was her... she is the one for him, I..." Before I could continue, Sara tore herself away from me. She was angry and disgusted. I tried to comfort her, but she screamed "don't touch me!!" Sara: "What the hell do you expect from me? Should I feel sorry for you now that Billie rejected my boyfriend? Do you actually notice how cruel you are towards me. You want to hear from me that everything is okay, and I forgive you. Tre, I've forgiven you 1000 times, but now you've gone too far. You cheated on me... I can't forgive you. I'll go out... when I get back, you will have packed your suitcase and are out of my house. I'm done with you..."