restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 60

Adie: "I love Charlie..." The first time I consciously said these words, I burst into tears.I felt terrible.A part of me has always hoped Billie would come back someday.The other part loved Charlie for over 10 years.Was it possible to be in love with 2 men at the same time? Billie winced when I spoke the 3 magic words out... "Billie please, I love Charlie... since the first day I met him.That was over 10 years ago. I was afraid of love after we split up. I was afraid that I would lose him like I lost you back then... I couldn't stand it when you were gone. I felt left alone, I wanted you to stay with me, to fight for me. But you didn't... you did go. I know I wanted it that way. My mouth said go, but my heart was screaming for you to stay. But you just walked away... and left me alone. That pain was unbearable. And then I met Charlie... he was my salvation. Everything I needed. Without him, I would never be where I am now. He helped me to get over you and look ahead. I owe him everything I am today. He was the angel who saved me from breaking apart. Billie, you were my first love... I love you with all my heart, I will always love you. But I love Charlie too..." Billie: Adie cried with every word. It tormented her. She didn't want to hurt me but either him. I didn't know what to say. Should I let her go? Or fight for her love? "Adie, what do you mean? It feels as if you want me to go... but you told me the same thing 10 years ago. Then I left, and today you tell me that you wanted me to fight for you. What do you want? I want to fight for you... I want to show you how much I love you. For the past 10 years I've only thought of you. There was no other woman for me, I always wanted you. You know I don't care about groupies. The only woman I've ever loved is you Adie. I can understand that everything is currently too much... I have a little gift for you, Happy Birthday my dear. You need time to think about everything. Take as much time as you need... I'll wait for you. My number is on the package. Unpack it later, and call me when you feel ready." I gave her a small kiss on her forehead, whispered "I love you," got up and left, while trying to hide away my tears...