restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 19

Mike : do you really want to do this to him? "Brian's face was changing rapidly. A painful expression spread across his face. "No... of course not. He should be happy... That's enough for me," Brian whispered and looked out of the window, depressed. Brian: How could I have been thinking so selfishly? ... Mike was right. I've been knowing this kind of pain just too well. It's a torture. He shouldn't suffer anymore. There is nothing that I want more than to be loved by him, but deep in my heart I know that it won't happen. I hated these moments... those little moments that kept grabbing me and tearing me apart... this unnecessary hope. I wish I could just turn this off.

Mike: After our conversation, Brian was very silent. I was glad he understood that we had to help him.But it also hurt to see him suffer.Brian has worked for Billie for many years.I cannot imagine how hard that must be... at that moment, Britt came into my head. She was a woman I had just met... but she had already put me under her spell and bewitched me.But unfortunately, I ruined that too... twice I had the chance to go out with this dream woman, and both times I had to cancel.Sometimes I wish I could assert myself better and say no... but it's tough.I find it difficult, especially when it comes to Tre & Billie, they are my family... "Let's take the plane this time... otherwise we will need hours again.I want to be home quickly..." We drove to the nearest airport in Phoenix and took the first direct flight to Minnesota...

Brian: We waited in the waiting room by our gate for our plane. The way through the airport was a bit more jittery because some fans recognized Mike. Mike is always very loving and is happy about every fan. Today he was a little more nervous... he ran from A to B in front of the big window and tried to reach someone. Whoever it was didn't seem to answer the phone, and he came over to me dejected "She pushed my call away 7 times... and now she has switched off her cell phone" he sighed. "Who? Britt?" Britt was the new girl Mike had met. It's been a while since I saw him with a steady partner. In those many years I have never seen that a woman makes him go crazy like that ..."