restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 118

Billie: "Ch-ch-a... arlie?" I asked stammering. *Was I drunk? Was I talking to a ghost? Or an angel?* Were the first thoughts that went through my mind. "Yes, since I was a young girl, all my friends call me Charlie.Charlotte Rose always sounded very serious," she said with a laugh. "Why are you so scared my boy?" "A friend of mine died 2 weeks ago... his name was Charlie..." "Oh, I'm sorry for your loss, honey.Was he a close friend? Is that why you are here to mourn?" "I don't know, actually we were even enemies..." "enemies? Why?" "We were both in love with the same woman... and she chose him..." "I can understand that it's very painful.How is she doing? Now I understand why you are here... you are trying to run away from your feelings, right? " "No... I... I tried to help her!! But, but she married him!!" I got up and kicked a stone angrily. "She should have married me!! and now... now she's going to have a baby from him.He will be her number 1 forever, and I.... I'm only the second choice..." I said sadly and suppressed my tears. "I don't think so, my boy..." Charlie said and put a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "Do you love her?" "Yes, unfortunately!!" "And did she love Charlie?" "Yes she does." "Then don't judge her... we can't decide who we fall in love with!! Did he treat her well?" "Yes... he was very kind and lovely.A part of me even likes him!! Deep down I know that he was the right one for her... But I love her, and it hurts that she will never love me as she loves him.She loved me 13 years ago... we were so happy. And now? I'm just like a pal..." "You just told me that you tried to help her.How did she react?" "What do you mean?" "Did she push you away after his dead?" "No... I was always with her the last few weeks before and after his death... The first two weeks she was lying the whole day in my arms... it seemed to calm her." "There you have your answer..." "What do you mean?" "Yes, she loved Charlie and always will.But she's in love with you too. You are her safe place now... Go home. She will need you, my boy... We both know that you wouldn't forgive yourself if you let her down... You are the only one who can take this pain away from her..."