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Chapter 52

Tre: The last 2 weeks have not been easy.I struggled with my feelings.Losing Sara opened my eyes... I love her.But I also love Billie.How could I have the same feelings for two people? I kept thinking about Jason's words. That I would always be Billie's first love and that nobody can take that away... but that wasn't enough for me. I wanted more, I wanted to be an important person in his life. But I also knew that this would never happen. Jason & Janna have been true angels for the past two weeks. The best friends you could ever ask for. They took care of me every day and tried to distract me. Now, I have decided to take a hotel room. I didn't want to be a burden to both of them anymore. Jason took me to the hotel earlier and told me that I should call him at any time if I needed someone to talk to. So I was just here, sitting on my bed, thinking... about what? About him... *shit* I thought annoyed. Billie hadn't called me in 2 weeks. Mike & Brian didn't think it was necessary to call too... Why doesn't Billie care about me? It just left him cold. Adie's birthday is today. *He is probably in bed with her right now* I thought jealously to myself. I tried not to think about him anymore. First of all, I had to take care of someone, someone I did hurt. I sat there alone and pondered how I could get Sara's trust back. I don't want to lie to her anymore, I don't want to fool her. If I went to her now and made a confession of love, then she would never believe me. She would think that I'm only saying this because I don't want to be alone. Janna gave me the tip to be honest with her. I still remember her words *Sara won't trust you if you tell her you love her Tre... you have to show her what she means to you. You have to prove to her that you love her. Only then, there is a small chance that she can forgive you. No more lies.* Her words burned into my brain like a tattoo... Janna was right as always. She was a really gorgeous woman, Jason is really lucky. While I was sitting there thinking about what I could do, the perfect idea suddenly occurred to me... Euphoric, I jumped out of my bed. *That's it!!* Now I know how I can prove my love, she will have no more doubts...