restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 131

*17th March 2007* Adie: My beloved husband passed away 3 months ago. Besides, today was his 33rd birthday. As always, Billie took good care of us. He got up several times at night just to check on me... It was early in the morning and I couldn't sleep like almost every day for 3 months... I had cried all night long... Will the pain ever stop? I went to the closet where his clothes were still there... I put on one of his shirts and searched for old pictures. Nora, Charlie and I did a lot of road trips over the years. Nora always made fun of Charlie staring at me in every photo. Wonderful memories that were now associated with a lot of pain... Our son or daughter will never get to know him. Charlie always wanted to be a father. He would have been a wonderful dad. Billie came in, sat down next to me and hugged me tightly, when he saw me crying. "Would you like to visit his grave, honey?" he asked. For 3 months I've been there every day... I couldn't stand not to see him. I missed Charlie...

Billie: We drove past a flower shop and got a beautiful bouquet for Charlie's grave. Adie was not doing well today because it was also his birthday. We sat there for hours, as always, and Adie talked to him. She wished him all the best for his birthday, told him about the pregnancy, about Nora, about me and that she loved and missed him... After a while, Adie sat down on a bench. I stayed at his grave and crouched down... Adie told me it always helps her to talk to him... "Hey Charlie, happy birthday, buddy. I can't believe it's been 3 months now... Adie is missing you. I actually don't believe in ghosts or angels, but I'm sure that you did send me the old woman when I was lost. Thank you for your help!! I'm sorry that I broke my promise in 2 weeks. Now I'm clear in my head again and will take care of Adie & the baby. Adie told me that she wanted your child to know that you are his/her birth father. I will tell the baby about his/her loving dad. And how much you did love Adie and will love the baby. I know I did break my promise once... but I promise you again that I will lovingly take care of Adie and your baby. You don't need to worry about them... rest in peace, my friend...