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Chapter 72

Billie: Mike tried his best to keep me up from driving away.But he also knew that he had no chance... "What should I tell Bill?" he asked as I got into my car. "I don't know... Adie needs me, Mike.I can't go on tour until I've cleared this up with her!!" I felt sorry because I did know Mike would get in trouble with Bill.But I had to talk to Adrienne.I knew she loved Charlie.Even if the chance is only 1: 1,000,000. If there is a little chance that she will choose me, then I would like to seize it. I arrived at the airport in an hour, the next flight was in a few hours. I nervously pondered over and over again which arguments I can tell her... how can I convince her to choose me? She loved the letters... they had brought her to tears. What I don't understand... what does she love about him? Why Charlie? What does he have that I don't have? Meanwhile, I was sitting on the plane and brooding over and over again. I wore a cap and sunglasses in order not to attract attention. Bill had advised us to stay away from the public first as Tre's interview drew very negative headlines. I still remember all the crazy headlines: "Greenday singer & drummer totally in love with each other... rumors from 1990, now finally confirmed after 15 years." I felt terrible when I saw the interview later... It was never my intention to hurt Tre. I love him. But I did hurt him a lot, as well as Brian and Kevin and a few others... When your heart gets broken, you somehow become heartless. You start to hurt others just because your heart was ripped out... Tre hasn't talked to me for the last 2 months, and I couldn't blame him. When I've cleared this up with Adie, I have to apologize to him in any case, and to Brian & Kevin... I did know they loved me, and still I did let them get too close to me... that was mean... The plane was barely landing, and I already got up. Once outside, I grabbed the first taxi and drove to Adie. We stopped briefly at a flower shop... you can't visit your dream woman without flowers, that's not proper. I got her a beautiful colorful bouquet full of roses and went on my way... When I got to her door, I rang the doorbell and couldn't wait to take my Adie in my arms...