restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 4

Brian : Billie just pulled my arm away, again. He does it every time, and it just feels like a punch in my heart. I know that he doesn't love me. But why can't he understand that I care about him? I just want him to be safe and happy. It breaks my heart to see him like this. How can I help him? I know that she is the reason.A part of me wants to hate her, but I can't.Even though it would break my heart into pieces, I wished she would come back. Seeing him suffer year for year is the most unbearable pain I have ever felt in my life. There is no pain like seeing the one you love to be dead inside.

We just walked down the streets and came to the studio. In front of the door, Tre & Sara were sitting on a bench, waiting for Billie. I have to say that it's not easy to see Tre. But we sit in the same boat.Two men who love the same guy who is unconditionally in love with a woman he hasn't seen for over a decade.But the one difference is I am honest with myself and the people around me.I hope that Sara will one day understand that Tre loves Billie.She is a good woman, she doesn't deserve that. Tre is actually a really good guy, but he just can't be alone. I can understand that, but I would rather be alone than with someone I don't love.We just came closer, and Tre did almost jump up and ran Billie in the arms. Sara was sitting on the bench and just looked confused at both. I gave her a little wave and a smile, and she smiled back. But her eyes were focused on Tre & Billie.

Billie : Sometimes I don't know how I should react when Tre hugs me and smiles at me like this. I know that I did hurt him in the past.Before I met Adie, Tre & I were dating. A part of me really believes that I did love him. I'm still not sure how to think about those feelings. Were they just sexual? Or in a romantic, true-loving way.The only thing I know is that I sincerely love him as my best friend and don't want to hurt him. I do care. But with every touch I feel like I'm doing him wrong.He looks at me the same way as he did 15 years ago but I can't return it.I did give him a warm hug and did kinda run up the stairs.When I came in, Mike was sitting on the couch with a big smile on his face ...