restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 91

Billie: It broke my heart to see Charlie's mother cry.I immediately thought of my mother, Ollie.If I were here for him, she'd go nuts.It must be a nightmare to know that your son will die at such a young age, and you can't help him.I offered her a handkerchief, but she refused to accept it.She turned away and tried not to look me in the eyes.I could understand her anger... I really didn't treat Charlie well.Adie & and I did both hurt him.But I'm not a bad person... I have never wanted something bad to happen to him. "Ma'am, I'm not here to hurt Charlie.I know I didn't treat him well back then.I'm only here because Evelyn called me. She wants me to help Adie.I swear to you that I won't stay in Charlie's life.It did hurt me back then that she wanted him... so I took out my jealousy on your son.Today I know that was wrong.He was the right one for her... "Shut up!! just shut up!!" she said, sobbing.I wanted to obey, but I wanted her to understand that I had no bad intentions. "I just went to Charlie to tell him that I am genuinely sorry for what happened to him.And to explain that, I just want to help Adie.And to apologize to him for my behavior back then... it does..." "Can you shut up and go, please? Can't you see that I don't want you here.Can you imagine how I, his mum, have to feel to talk to the man who is the reason why my baby has suffered for 10 years? Can you imagine how much it hurts? I don't want to hear your apology.You don't need to pretend a bad conscience just to clear your conscience.No matter what you say, nothing will change the pain he was going through.Since you and Adrienne came into his life, he suffered day by day.He was sad, angry or jealous every day.All because of the two of you.I begged him to let her go... but he couldn't.Are you happy now? You drove my son to death!!" she said crying, and left the room.Her words hit me hard.I have never wanted him to suffer because of me... and I know that Adie has never wanted it either. She loves Charlie dearly. After this one-sided conversation with his mum, I felt the need to sincerely apologize to him. He shouldn't think that I'm even a second happy about it. No, it tears me apart. I felt guilty...