restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 120

Billie: "What about the baby? I can't stand having a baby from him.Every time I see her baby belly or hear someone call her Mrs. Sheppard, it hurts like hell.For me, there is no other woman beside Adie.It hurts that I'm not the only man in her heart.I don't know if I can be there for the baby.It's an innocent child that deserves to have a good father.I am afraid that I will be sad every time I see him or her.I have always wanted to have a little daughter from Adrienne.I imagined how she would have her dark hair and her beautiful dark brown eyes..." I said sadly. "A family doesn't result from blood, Billie.It's love which makes us a family.Adoptive parents love their children in the same way as biological parents do.I know you will love the baby unconditionally, and do you know why? Because it's a part of her... you will look into those innocent eyes and see your Adrienne.And all the pain will be gone.And the baby will love you because I know that you will be a very good father!! Now all you have to do is get yourself together and go home. Adrienne needs you now, and your child needs you too..." said Charlie. "You shouldn't blame her for marrying the man she loves. I know that it does hurt. But she was happy with him and wanted to be his wife. You said you knew he was the right one for her, right? Be happy that she did find him and wasn't alone all these years. He made her happy, you can't deny it." She gently put an arm on my shoulder as I sat on the stones and fought with all those painful thoughts... They circled around wildly. I knew she was right. I had to go home to my family. But I was ashamed... How could I leave them alone? I am a terrible person!! I put my head gently on a stone and closed my eyes. I heard her speak to me "Unfortunately, I have to go now, my boy. Please go home. Your family will be worried about you. Everyone in my family has passed away. That's why I know how important it is to use every day as if it's the last one. And appreciate the time you have with your loved ones!! It will take some time until she forgives you. You have to fight for her and prove to her that she can count on you." Charlie stroked my head lovingly and went home...