restless_heart_syndrome_

Chapter 96

Billie: "Honey, you don't know how much I wish you were right. I know what you're doing. You deny what's going to happen because the truth hurts you too much. I'd do anything to take this pain away, but I can't... Adie, you don't just hurt yourself. If I were Charlie right now, then I would like to have my wife around me all the time. I'm sure he feels the same way. Adie, he needs you. Try not to waste the time you two have. Unfortunately, your love has been set a time limit, which is not fair. Precisely, because of this, it's even more important that you don't waste any more time. Enjoy the days you still have together. Honey, you won't forgive yourself if you leave him alone now. You don't have to go through this alone... I told Mike that I would cancel the World Tour. I will be by your side. I won't leave you alone. Even if you don't want me too, even if you hurt me again, even if you hate me... I'll never leave you alone again. We will get through this together..." Adie cried and couldn't calm down. I took her carefully in my arms and stroked her back soothingly... for a while we both sat there, and Adie finally allowed it... she let out her feelings, which had tormented her for months. She cried and cursed. All the grief was too much. "I don't want him to die... I love him, Billie," she said, sobbing. "I know... his body may soon be no longer be with us, but trust me, his love for you is unconditional... I know that he will continue to take care of you like an angel from heaven... Just as he has always did!!" We sat on the bench for a good two hours. It seemed to me as if she would gradually allow everything. She cried a lot, but that was good. She has to process it and accept it. "I want to see Charlie..." she mumbled after a while and leaned away from my chest. "Of course, should I come with you? Or would you like to be alone with him? Should I get you two something to eat?" "No thanks, we did ate earlier. Can you come with me? It hurts to see him suffer every day... I find it hard not to cry in front of him... but I don't want him to worry about me." "Of course, I'll come with you, honey!! And Adie, believe me... the only thing he worries about is you...