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Chapter 122

Tre: It took me exactly 3 days to find out where Sara lived today. Many of our mutual friends had turned away from me because I had not treated her well in our relationship. Could I hold it against them? No, definitely not. I was deeply ashamed to this day that I had hurt her. Until today I couldn't even say why I did it. I loved this woman. Why do you hurt someone who means the world to you? Shouldn't I have noticed it at least when she cried over and over again because of me? Or when she was about to leave me? Why did I act like her feelings were indifferent? I've made a lot of mistakes in my life... but I don't regret any of them as much as I do regret hurting my Sara. Because of me, this wonderful woman will forever have a deep scar in her heart... I will never forgive myself for what I did to her... I walked up the beautiful street in the city of Los Angeles. A few miles away, hidden behind a large meadow, there was a small house painted in light yellow. According to a former good friend of mine, Sara moved here after we split up... The house had a small garage that could fit two cars. The garden could be seen from outside. There were lots of yellow flowers. Somehow the whole thing amazed me... yellow was definitely not Sara's favorite color. She loved gaudy dark tones like black, red, purple... From the outside, I would never think that this is her house. When I went to the door, I noticed that Sara's last name was not on the door. *Oh no, that's the wrong address, I thought to myself. Such a crap.* There were two names on the doorbell, *Patrick & Sara Evans.* Just as I was about to leave, a little boy came running towards me from the garden... He was about 1 1/2 years old and was just getting started walking. He was running around happily in the garden, playing with a little puppy. He had dark blonde, straight hair and precious eyes that shone like baby crystal blue diamonds... When the little boy saw me, he squealed happily and smiled at me. When I saw that sweet smile, my heart opened up, and for a second, I totally forgot all this pain in my heart... The first thing that crashed me when I saw this cute little buddy was that he looked exactly like me...