Busy being Yours

42.2 (Bonus Chapter)

Hello! So hi, this is supposed to be Chapter 43 but it's length is so much shorter than what's my normal chapter (lols) kaya't ayokong gawing official. I tried for three days na gawan ng maidudugtong pa sa part na ito, even tried writing a detailed outline but it just doesn't feel right and ayoko din namang pilitin ang sarili ko. Ayaw niya lang talagang mag-work. And I'd rather start a new one after this one than to force something that I'm not really happy with. This is more of a continuation of the previous chapter. I cannot say that it's the best pero ito 'yung isa sa mga later chapters ng J&J na pinaka-nag-enjoy akong isulat. You'll know why...

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"You're my June. I'll always be waiting for you,"

My heart aches even more as I heard him say that. What if I never sort out my feelings? Paano kung hanggang ngayon ay 'di ko parin alam ang gusto ko? Anong mangyayari sakanya? Patuloy parin ba itong maghihintay? Hanggang kailan siya maghihintay?

I don't wanna think about it because it made me realize that the longer I was blinded by the truth that I have deeper feelings for him, the more that I'll be hurting him. Even if it's unconsciously... Even if I never really wanted it to happen in the first place.

He's Jason. Ayokong masaktan siya pero nagawa ko parin. There's nothing that I can do about it now, hindi ko na mababalik ang panahon. I'm just thankful that I finally came to my senses, kasi hindi lang naman siya 'yung nasasaktan dito. Because if I remained oblivious, I would never be aware that I'm missing something great... Something that I finally deserve... Something that I always wanted even if it took me so long to know that I want it in the first place.

And now he's holding me... Fuck, he's kissing me. I could die here and now, I'll know I lived a full life.

He kissed me like I've never known. He pulled me closer to him, I held tighter. His hands slowly slid to the back of my thighs, urging me to sit on his lap, hindi ako nagdalawang-isip na kumandong sakanya. My hands made their way to his hair, combing through it— enjoying how soft they felt. And god, where do I even begin with his lips? The same ones that gave me my first kiss— he tastes minty and sweet... Siguro ay dahil sa tinikman niyang banoffee frosting kanina but I highly doubt it, he always tasted sweet, there's also the hint of nicotine, the one that calms my nerves... I didn't even realized that my heart's not pounding anymore, that it's not killing and suffocating me.

He did that.

Only he can do that.

He can take it all away.

I felt his hand around my neck, forcing my chin up as his kisses moved down my jaw. He nipped at the point where my jaw met my neck earning a tug on his hair and a gasp from my mouth.

God, what took me so long to realize that I care for him?

He's really good at this...

I hate myself for thinking that I don't like him...

No wonder that I always wanted more of him when I was younger because he really knows what he's doing...

I wanna shout at myself for not knowing sooner that I want him...