Shatter Me

Learning More About Her🗄📂📁📖

What shocked Horatio Caine the most was that Zariah was a little over prepared for she removes the canvas bag strap off her shoulder, opens the bag itself up and pulls out a large pile of case files "Leigh's wrong.... I never forget a face or a name ESPECIALLY when it comes to my "siblings" and their birth families! I've even filled a large photo album with pictures of their families before they were broken by our "new" parents.... I want them to someday hopefully forget the pain they've been put through being forced to watch the death of their parents but I never want them to forget the happier times from before that "fateful" day.... as far as I know I was their first.... well they'd never use the word but.... victim.... I carry one too many scars because of them physical, mental, emotional, psychological but I've done my best to make sure the others never feel that type of pain I've spent my whole life protecting others I've completely forgotten how to protect myself but I don't matter.... they do!!"  she tells him waving her hands at the files he now skims through trying to hide the shock he feels from what he's witnessing just by looking at the Crime Scene photos and reading the reports within the folders "how did you get these!?!"  he asks "having a friend in the Miami Dade Police Department comes in handy I guess!"  she replies he chuckles "it took me forever to find those I didn't know the case numbers but....!"  she adds he nods then looks up at her and realizes that she had to relive everything just to find the many files that now sit in front of him and probably more and a hint of sorrow flashed over his eyes at the thought of her ever being in pain for ANY reason "I started my job at the Missing Persons Department so I could find other members of their family.... see if anyone was actually looking for them!.... the hardest part is finding people willing to adopt those that are broken and are willing to help them heal.... people are far too selfish to....!"  she stops and he looks up at her again "I'm not sure why I give into them! I don't fear for myself I fear for those I have called my siblings since they were forced to live the life I live!.... I wish I was strong enough to stop them but I was never trained to be strong just complaint.... do what I'm told not what I know is right....!"  she says then she moves her hands so that they are now laying palms up on his desk and he stares at her "melted" fingertips that were burnt until she no longer had any fingerprints and bruised wrists in shock as she continues "they wanted me to HELP them "take care of" my soon to be siblings parents and instead I ended up becoming a "lesson" for my soon to be siblings one to show them what they had to do!.... no wonder they feared me I am just as weak as they are!.... when they failed in making me become them and when I found a way to break free from the binds they bound me with the parents gave me a new job to be there AFTER the fact and take care of the ones they no longer seem to care about as a matter of fact I have a feeling they do it because they can get away with it it's just another boost to their already inflated ego!.... the power all of it gives them they live for the fear in the child that gets left behind....!"  she pauses then stands up and walks out of his office not willing to speak of any of it anymore as a matter of fact she believes she told him too much but there was something about him that made her want to spill every dirty little secret she had and confide in him tell him every one of her fears, hopes, dreams, EVERYTHING!! but she didn't know him enough to do that she only knew what her friends told her and that wasn't enough he is a stranger she shouldn't trust him but she does! as a matter of fact he makes her feel things in ways she's never felt before in her life mainly out of fear of how the parents would act around those she would even ATTEMPT to date she didn't even make friends because she didn't want the parents to make them into her new siblings Horatio watches her leave with sad eyes then he looks down and sees a more recent file one that was made during the week she was gone "Miss Zariah"  he calls out softly and he could have sworn he saw a small smile grace the corner of her soft luscious lips as she stops in the doorway "they call him Macbeth"  she tells him "and just so you know I wasn't there when they committed the crime I was visiting a former sibling who was celebrating his birthday with his new family.... and before you doubt what little strength I do have I'm still helping in any way I can they are my responsibility! and not just because the parents gave me that responsibility but because they are the only family I have left!! they've been with me for 4 years I'm all they know and they are all I know!.... good day Lieutenant"  she says then she walks the rest of the way out of the office and a small smile graces his handsome features as he goes back to the file that now lays open in his hand....