Connecting Threads (Book 2 of KOV series #2)

II: Twisted

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Psyche Valentine Collins

During these past few months, I realized that Eros was always acting nice and caring towards me. Sometimes, I felt like he's doing that so he and I can get back together. But I'm not sure either because honestly speaking, his words and actions are making me feel confused every single time.

Like yesterday, he insisted that I should stay for breakfast, lunch and even dinner. We literally spent time with each other and Cerbe was just an excuse, I couldn't believed that he actually used his own cat to make me stay because he knew that I won't be able to say no when it comes to his cat.

I'm not sure whether it's Mace or Ramiel who told me about this but one of them said that I shouldn't allow someone to come back into my life just because we have history together.

He even said that if a relationship went from something beautiful to chaos, I should let those memories go. Accept that the past will never be the future. And stop going back to what my heart is trying to heal from.

I mean, whoever said those words to me? He does have a good point but in the first place, my heart wasn't trying to heal from the fact that I got broken-hearted beceuas of Eros. Why? It's because I was the one who left. I decided to do that because I had to do so, I couldn't just simply stood up and do nothing.

In other words, I never moved on. I'm still in love with Eros.

I can cut him off and still love him. I can stop speaking to him and still care for him. I can always wish him all the best but I can never ever let him go. Back then, I never knew that I would have to do something like that. Leaving him alone was the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life, even if a lot had happened now? I'm still wishing for the time to turn backwards.

I just want to spend some more time with Eros, I didn't want to go anywhere yesterday but I don't have the rights to stay there with him either. Besides, I don't want to get my hopes up. If he doesn't wanna fix what we left behind then it's fine, I'll try to accept it and move on. But if there's a tiny chance that he want to fix it as well, perhaps? we can help each other out.

I suddenly remembered what Trinity told me before. She once told me that I can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened or I can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on.

But unfortunately, the phrase "move on" doesn't exist in my vocabulary nor in any of my dictionaries and I don't think it will ever exist in there.

Ngayon, kasalukuyan akong nasa St. Valentine. And to be exact, nasa loob ako ng classroom. Si Avianna lang ang kasama ko dahil nag-karoon ng kaunting pag-babago, it's our examination day but the Teachers suddenly decided to put some twist. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang "twist" na sinasabi nila.

Our classes were all cancelled yesterday, ang dahilan kung bakit wala kaming klase ay nag-plano ang mga Guro patungkol nga sa sinasabi nilang "twist" na ngayon pa lang namin malalaman.

Kahit si Avianna ay walang alam tungkol doon, hindi rin daw sinabi sa kaniya ng mga Teachers. Well, if she doesn't know anything about it then I doubt that Trinity and Riane are aware about this so-called "twist" that they are talking about.