Connecting Threads (Book 2 of KOV series #2)

II: Peace In My Chaotic World

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Jonathan Eros Rodriguez

Matapos kumain ni Psyche, siya na ang pinauna kong mag-ayos dahil alam ko namang aabutin siya ng ilang oras para lang matapos sa pag-aayos ng sarili niya. Alam niya naman kung ano ang susunod kong surpresa sa kaniya, binigyan ko kase siya ng clue at hindi ko inaasahan na mabilis niyang mahuhulaan ang tamang sagot. Sabagay, matalino si Psyche.

Hindi rin siya basta na lang nakakalimot ng mga bagay-bagay lalo na kung ako mismo ang nag-bitaw ng salita, naaalala niya ang mga naka-sulat sa bawat love lotter na ginawa ko para sa kaniya bago ako umalis kasama si Thor. Napag-usapan din namin ang tungkol sa bagay na iyon habang kumakain kaming dalawa kanina. Kahit hindi niya sabihin, alam ko naman.

Alam kong sumama ang loob niya at nagalit siya sa'kin dahil hindi man lang ako nag-paalam sa kaniya, bago ako umalis? Ni hindi kami nakapag-usap kahit sandali lang. Mabuti pa raw sa iba ay nagawa kong mag-paalam pero sa kaniya? Hindi ko raw ginawa ang bagay na iyon.

When she found out that I was missing, she never believed that I was gone and that I won't be coming back. She never gave up on trying to find me, she's using everything that she has and I was always included on her prayers. I told her the reason why I didn't say goodbye to her. If I'm being honest, I don't have the courage to do that in the first place.

If I say goodbye to a person, it means I'm no longer coming back to him or to her. But I promised myself that I'll come back to her, that's the reason why I don't have to say goodbye to Psyche. And I will never ever do that, I can never say that to my woman. Back then and now, not even if I was forced to.

Psyche brings peace in my chaotic world. I really don't need a lot of expensive suits, wristwatches, sports cars, or any material things. Having Psyche in my life is more than enough for me. She's all that I want and at the same time, I need her as well. Without her then I'd rather not exist at all.

She may not be a perfect person but she's a wife material, I know because I've seen it myself. She took care of me, loved me, gave all of her time to me and her patience towards my rotten attitude was even longer than her own hair.

Some of our helpers left because of me, I just found out about it recently. I was looking for them then Manang Marisa told me that they already left, since I don't remember them back then? I didn't really care about it. I know, I also feel guilty and awful regarding what happened. I was a big jerk.

I want them to come back to us but I don't think they will because some of those helpers who left had managed to find a new employer as soon as they had decided to leave. Mom and Dad knew about it too, Manang Marisa told me that they tried to convince them to stay but they didn't.

"Eros? Why are you sitting there?".

"I was waiting for you".

"I'm done taking a nice warm bath, you should go ahead and take a bath too so we can go!".

"I will so you should get dressed now".

"Why? Don't you like me when I'm naked?".

"I like you better with no clothes on but we can't go on a picnic with Cerbe if you're naked".