Connecting Threads (Book 2 of KOV series #2)

II: Where My Heart Belongs

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Psyche Valentine Collins

My mind was already back to my awful reality but despite that fact, I still couldn't accept some of it. I can't fucking move on because I'm not trying to do so and it's not like anyone can put the blame on me, I'm just a human being. Controlling your own emotions is like talking to a one month old baby.

Can a one month old baby understand you? Of course he or she can't possibly comprehend what you are saying because that baby is just a one month old but if you can baby talk as well then that baby might be able to understand you, somehow..

But that's not actually the point here, I can't move on. End of discussion and I think I'm actually going insane because I badly want to see him but I can't!! Wala naman akong sapat na dahilan para mag-punta sa kumpanya niya. Nakuha ko na ang lahat ng mga gamit ko, isa pa? Ayokong mag-karoon nanaman ng mga bagong chismis. I never knew na ganon pala sila doon.

Perhaps, all of the employees in DWSI are spies then Eros and I are the ones that they had to watch carefully. Even if it doesn't make any sense, hindi naman malabo ang sinasabi ko dahil pinasundan na ako ng Mom ni Eros noon. Kung totoo man ang imagination ko, I don't know what to do anymore.

Only Eros himself can stop his own Mother, wala akong rights para makialam sa kanilang dalawa. They should handle their own family issues, labas ako sa kung ano man ang problema nilang mag-ina at wala akong balak makisali but for God's sake? He has to stop his own Mother for me, I don't know kung ano'ng kaseng favor ang hinihingi ko but he has to do it.

Two weeks had already passed by, I barely noticed it because I was always busy with my work. Medyo matagal din naman ang pananatili ng buong pamilya ng kapatid ko dito at ngayon ang huling araw ni Ate Chelsea, Kuya Danielle at ng kaisa-isa nilang Anak dito sa mansyon. I had too much fun, nawawala ang pagod ko sa tuwing nakikita ko ang Pamangkin ko!

Pero eto na kase ang huling araw nila, kailangan na nilang umuwi dahil may trabaho pa si Kuya Danielle. He can't be gone for too long, naiintindihan ko naman kaya kahit nakakalungkot ay wala akong magagawa. Besides, they can always come in here! Hindi naman kami mawawala lalo na ako. This mansion is my home too, I live here along with Ate Val and Dad!!

It's still early, five o'clock pa lang ng umaga. The sun hasn't risen on the east direction yet, tulog pa nga si Ate Valerie pero kaming dalawa ni Dad ay gising na dahil uuwi na nga sina Ate Chelsea pati na ang mag-Ama niya. We have to say goodbye to them at least, gusto ko rin sanang ihatid sila sa Airport but I figured that it's not a good idea for me to do so.

Hindi magandang ideya 'yon dahil siguradong maiiyak lang ako habang pinapanood ko silang lumakad palayo, let me make it clear okay? First of all, I'm not being dramatic or what.

Wala rin akong separation anxiety or so-called mental illness, siyempre nalulungkot ako dahil kahit papaano ay nasanay na akong kasama sila. It's actually difficult to get used to the previous situation again, but I already saw this coming so I think I'll be fine for as long as I'll always keep myself occupied.

"Psyche, don't forget to eat something before you go to work and tell Dad to stop drinking too much. He's not getting any younger though". Masayang paalala ni Ate Chelsea.

"I'm pretty sure that Dad heard everything you said, I don't have to remind him about it". Sagot ko naman sa kaniya. Dad laughed a bit, he seemed calm but I don't think so.