Connecting Threads (Book 2 of KOV series #2)

II: The Fault In Our Lifetime

*5 months later..

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Psyche Valentine Collins

You promised. You gave me your word. You filled me with hope and security. You told me the things I needed to hear to take the chance and make the jump with you.

You made me feel like I was worth it, I was who you wanted but you shattered that all quite well. You couldn't even woke me up when you were leaving. You turned around and left me all alone without you. You even promised that you'd come back but you didn't. You never came back to me anymore.

When a heart breaks, what sound does it make? Nothing.

Absolutely nothing. There is a silence, because when a heart breaks, the person becomes the definition of emptiness. Even when their world crumbles and falls apart in their hand, it is silent. There's a cruel realization in heartbreak, and it's that you know you're about to live where the sun no longer shines and where you can't even see that your clouds have gone to grey.

Most of the time, I wished I was broken hearted because he finally told me that he's no longer coming back to me but it's the other way around. I'm still heartbroken because he left me and the world permanently, that's the reason why he's no longer coming back to me. I can't get used to it and I don't think I can because I'm madly in love with Eros.

I'm still completely mad at Dad along with everyone in their Agency, even if my Cousins are also a part of it. Why didn't they do something to save Eros and Thorin? Why didn't they took action when they already sensed that something bad is going on? Why did they just accepted the fact that those two are gone and no longer coming back to us?

Why!? I badly want an explanation. I want them to tell me why, because my mind can't comprehend it. Up until now, it doesn't want to absorbed their reasons. I don't want to be mad at anyone because none of them are at fault, they didn't caused the accident that took Eros' and Thorin's life.

But even if they weren't the ones who caused it, they are still to blame because they didn't do anything at all. They just simply accepted everything, they pretended that they did investigate the incident but they didn't!! None of them did something. Not even Dad despite the fact that he saw how desperate I was.

My mind is still having trouble wrapping itself around the fact that he's gone. Loving Eros changed my life, it should come as no surprise that losing him has done the same. I don't want to accept any of it, I can't believe that he's not coming back.

I can never convince myself to believe that he passed away, we didn't even get a chance to talk each other. That morning, he just left with Thorin. He should've at least said his goodbye to me or something but he didn't, I don't know why he did that.

It hurts so much but taking my own life won't bring him back to life and I know that. If he's already gone, nothing will change.

Instead, the people whom I left behind will be ones who'll suffer the most. Specially Ate Chelsea herself. I don't want that to happen so I'm trying my best to stay sane as possible, I still don't know what I'm capable of.

It's been five months since that horrible news made my whole world fell apart but until now, wala pa rin kaming nakukuhang balita tungkol sa mga katawan nila. When the incident took place, ninety percent was burnt into ashes while the remaining ten percent can barely be seen at all.