Connecting Threads (Book 2 of KOV series #2)

II: Astronomy

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Jonathan Eros Rodriguez

It hurts like hell when you know that you need to let go of someone but you can't, because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen. And I wonder, how do you say goodbye when you're heart still wants to hold on??

It's hard to wait around for something that might never happen but it's even harder to give up when you know that it's everything that you want. I'm still damn in love with Psyche but I had to let her go, it's for her own sake as well. She doesn't have to wait for me but if she will, that's probably a dream.

What if I never forget her? What if, all my life, when I meet someone new, I can never fall for them because they aren't her?

It's kinda ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we already saw coming. If I had a choice, I would renew the contract and make her stay by my side for the rest of our lives.

I don't want to lose her, I can never accept that. Psyche is the only woman for me. I don't want anyone else, I just want her but fuck! I had to do let her go again!! Every day and night, the thought of tearing the contract apart piece by piece was still haunting me even if I'm asleep at night.

She's already gone for a year now because her contract had ended and I didn't renew it, why? It's because I promised her that after two years, I would let her go willingly but I wasn't willing to do that!! I was never! I just had no choice.

Back then, Señorita Anastasia contacted me about it. She reminded me of what I had to do, I even asked her about what if I don't want to let Psyche go. She replied and told me that my Mom wouldn't agree to that idea and she was actually right.

Hindi pumayag si Mom na manatili si Psyche sa kumpanya ng pamilya namin dahil una sa lahat, kailangan niyang asikasuhin ang Classico Hotel. Isama pa ang St. Valentine at pangalawa naman ay ang trabaho niya bilang isang modelo sa Agency ni Tita Adrianna. Kapag ipinag-patuloy niya ang pagiging Sekretarya ko? Baka mag-kasakit siya dahil sa sobrang pagod.

Besides, I can't keep two Secretaries. I'm not even a damn CEO.

Maliban sa bagay na binanggit ko, hindi rin pumayag si Mom na dalawa ang Sekretarya ko. Tinanong ko rin siya kung bakit hindi pwede, sinabi niya sa'kin na hindi naman daw mahirap ang trabahong ginagawa ko at isa pa? Mas kilala ng lahat si Ms. Cuevas kumpara kay Psyche. Nalilito ang mga tao kung sino ba raw talaga ang totoo kong Sekretarya.

Ang pinaka-huli, inaalala ni Mom ang imahe ni Psyche dahil nag-kakaroon na rin ng mga chismis na mag-karelasyon daw kami at iyon ang dahilan kung bakit siya pumasok sa kumpanya ng pamilya namin bilang Sekretarya ko.

Sa totoo lang, wala akong pakealam sa iniisip ng ibang tao pero sigurado akong maaapektuhan ng labis si Psyche at hindi ko gustong mang yari ang bagay na 'yon.

Kung totoo lang ang chismis na sinasabi nila? Baka binigyan ko pa ng reward ang kung sino mang nag-sabi o nag-kalat ng balita na 'yon sa loob ng kumpanya namin. Ang problema? hindi naman totoo ang mga sinasabi nila at ang masaklap pa doon ay mas naniniwala si Mom sa kanila! Kaysa sa'kin!!

Nasaan ang hustisya? Ako ang Anak niya pero sa ibang tao siya naniniwala at hindi sa'kin. Pero hindi ko rin naman siya masisisi dahil posible rin namang mag-katotoo ang sinasabi ng mga tao tungkol sa'min ni Psyche.