Connecting Threads (Book 2 of KOV series #2)

II: What Has To Be Done

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Psyche Valentine Collins

Yesterday, I basically spent the whole day with everyone in Alvarez's residence. It actually sucks to pretend that I'm doing fine even though I was never alright after hearing about Eros' sudden death, of course I'm also upset about what happened to Thorin because he's a good friend of mine. We don't really get along, he's a snob but he never treats me like I'm invisible.

Trinity was the only person who stayed behind because she said that she wanted to do so, West and Cece probably went home together while I didn't stay because I still have a lot of work to do. They knew about it and besides, I have to wake up early. It's not they'll help me finish every single work that I have to do.

On the other hand, Jared didn't stay either. It seemed like he's busy about something, I don't know what kind of business does he have and I don't give a damn about it either. It doesn't really matter to me, that's his own life. I shouldn't meddle nor do something unnecessary like become a nosy person.

I had decided to rest early last night because I've got nothing else to do and now, the time is just five o'clock in the morning but I'm already wide awake now. I can't go back to sleep no matter how hard I tried, it's kind of frustrating but I think, it's fine because I love how the surrounding looks like at this hour.

I'm all alone and right now, I'm in so much pain. Unfortunately, no one is around to help me deal with it so instead, I have to do it on my own. But I don't even know how. The pain won't stop and it's tearing me inside and outside, over and over again.

Whenever I'm missing him, I also remember how fortunate I was that he was in my life. I wouldn't trade those moments for the world. I already know the fact that out of all God's creation, I wasn't his favorite but can he at least let me become happy without asking anything in return?

Remembering him is easy, I do it everyday. But missing him is a heartache that never goes away.Some days, the memories still knock the wind out of myself. I was never ready for him to leave.

The people around me keep on telling me to do something impossible, which is to move on and accept the fact that Eros is gone and he will never come back. They keep on telling me that life goes on, but to me, that's the saddest part.

All the memories come back but he never does.

How can he leave me alone with Cerberus? Now, his child and myself are all alone. We badly need him but like what everyone kept on saying, he's gone and he will never come back. But the weird part is that something inside me is telling me that I shouldn't believe them and that Eros is not gone.

While I was busy staring at the moon, my phone suddenly rang.

A restricted number? Who might this be? Ate Val? But she wouldn't call me using a phone number like this, neither does Dad himself nor Ate Chelsea. Oh, but there's actually someone who might because she doesn't want to reveal herself to anyone except to me. I don't understand the reason why she's letting me see her but she can't be seen by anyone.

I immediately answered her call without hesitation.

Ako: You again, what do you want?