another Chance

#6

Sasuke heard his brother's voice, although his body was screaming at him to just rest or passout, with all the exhaustion and the pain, he could do just that and  pass out but he resisted  his body's need and urges, he refused to listen to it, the pain from his jaw, the pain in his neck and stomach, his left upper arm started bleeding again staining his off white- greyish  cloack red, still he raised his arm and did his best to covered his brother's eyes because he knew his brother was going to activate his sharingan, his ears were ringing, he knew his brother was saying something to him....mocking him perhaps but he couldn't hear a single word, at this moment he hated his ears that were rining, they were useless if they could not help him listen to his aniki's voice, the voice he missed so much, slowly he exhaled and forced himself to speak " don't use it any more....beat me up if you want just don't use it.... I beg you.... aniki..." His voice was weak and it was almost in a whisper, but Itachi heard him clearly, not only that but he also saw the tears that rolled down his brother's cheeks then fell down hitting the ground and then disappearing. Itachi finally couldn't help it, his heart softened, and he felt his throat was blocked, feeling as if something was struck in there, his brother's soft weak voice begging him, reminded him of that day....back then too....when sasuke suddenly opened the door to that room and witnessed him killing their parents....he had begged in a soft and sobbing voice, just like now "please tell me that it's not you ...aniki...." that's what he had begged, he had begged him to tell him that all that was just a nightmare and his aniki was not the one who had just killed their parents, that was the last time he had seen sasuke shed tears or him showing such vulnerability...he felt  a pang of dull pain in his chest. He couldn't help it, ignoring kisame, Itachi suddenly disappeared with sasuke as many crows appeared and surrounded them...
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Itachi appeared at a clearing inside the forest a safe distance away from kisame and that small village near border. He placed sasuke on the ground under the shade of a huge tree, he had felt the wetness, he quickly took off sasuke's blood soaked cloack, then he took off his top  and he was shocked when he saw sasuke's left upper arm after getting rid of the blood soaked gauge, he saw sasuke's upper left arm was full of cuts, it was obvious they were self inflicted and fresh, he carefully took in his little brother's appearance, he was beautiful as ever, but he was paler than usual, he seemed exhausted, there were black-dark purpleish bags under his eyes, he was visibly weak, tired and his chakra seemed to squeezed out of him till the last drop, overall he was in a very bad condition. Looking again at self inflicted damage sasuke had done to himself, itachi's heart was clenched and eyes were filled with worry. He had never thought that sasuke would harm himself like this....what was he thinking....why would he do this to himself? Itachi replayed what happened just now in his head using his sharingan ' don't use it any more....beat me up if you want just don't use  it.... I beg you.... aniki...', " Foolish  little brother " he mumbled in a voice that was barely above a whisper as his eyes moistened, unlike before they were not filled with redicule, at this moment those deep beautiful onyx eyes were showing worry and gentleness that was only reserved for his brother, the cold frozen depth of onyx abyss at this moment has melted and rippled with emotion that he always locked away and hid from every one. Looking at his passed out brother, riddled with so many injuries, some of which were his own handy work, Itachi could not bring himself to just leave him(sasuke), he sat down beside sasuke gently placing his(sasuke) head on his(Itachi) own lap, he ran his fingers through sasuke's soft black hair soothingly, he could not help a frown creeping up his face as he once again glanced at the self inflicted cuts on sasuke's arm, he decided to first treat his brother's arm, as he was contemplating the reason that must have led his brother to hurt himself like this....was it because of....him(Itachi), just as he was about to think some more he felt sasuke struggle....
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His breathing was chaotic, he felt suffocated....he was leaving him again, everything was going the wrong way again, sasuke found himself at that place again....covered with black flames of amaterasu....dark clouds hanging in the sky as the heavy rain started pouring, the building was completely destroyed, he was leaning against the barely standing wall, he was battered, his body ached, not a single part that wasn't protesting against him, he saw Itachi heavily injured, covered in blood, a trickle of blood dripping from his mouth walking towards him, he looked weak, his eyes dull, he seemed tired as if he just wanted to rest and nothing more, his eyes were dull but there was still a kind of relief there, as if he could finally relax and be carefree....this....this was..... this was when he killed his brother in his last life...no...nononononono!NO!!! he....he doesn't want this! Sasuke wanted to go forward to catch him, stop him from falling, if he could hurry now his aniki could still be saved, he'd do anything, he won't allow this! He won't allow his aniki to leave him like this! He was wrong!!! " Nii san, I was wrong! I won't do anything you don't want!! I will go back to konoha! I will obey!! I'd do anything there's gotta be some other way!!! I'll find another solution just...just don't leave me!!! DON'T LEAVE ME ANIKI!!!" he yelled with all his might, he tried his best to get to his aniki, to save him but it felt as if something was stopping him, his body felt heavier, his breathing became more and more irregular, he could not breath, he could not speak, he could not move, he only watched helplessly as his aniki came closer, unsteadily lifted his arm and gently poked his forehead, he had a soft close eyed smile just like in the past as he mouthed 'forgive me.... sasuke', before he lost his consciousness and fell forward right by his side, covered in his own  blood. Sasuke felt like he couldn't breathe, he felt numb, cold.....his aniki left him....again....this time he left him for forever...