another Chance

#4

Although his face showed nothing, the changes in his eyes were obvious, they gave away the irritation he was feeling at the moment, Ino, sakura, hinata and ten ten had faces redder than sakura's top, hinata seemed flustered enough to faint, sakura had her eyes on sasuke's collar bone as a few stray drops of water pooled there before sliding downwards, blood slowly dripped down her nose and her face got redder by the seconds to actually surpass hinata, one could faintly see smoke coming out of her mind as her brain went on over drive. Ino and ten ten were wide eyed but soon covered their eyes, other than them there were neji, rock lee, kiba, chouji, shikamaru, shino, kakashi, yamato, sai and tsunade. Sasuke shot Naruto an inquiring look and then said slowly " I need clothes", Naruto quickly took him to his bedroom and then gave him some clothes to wear ' I guess he won't be saying anything more than needed' he thought as he got out of the room, this whole time he had tried to speak to sasuke but he stayed silent and dazed only paying attention to him(Naruto) when he got too close to him(sasuke)
and that ended up with him getting a glare from the uchiha. He sighed and walked to the living room to entertain his guests, who had come here to meet the uchiha who somehow gave up on running away from konoha and becoming a rogue ninja...although he was happy with this but he couldn't help but feel suspicious of his sudden change....he helplessly sighed again and gaveup on thinking things through for now ' he came back and that's all that matters' he thought, no longer worrying about the matter.
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Sasuke came out after changing into a black t-shirt with usumaki clan symbol and a loose trouser, he was somewhat glad that it was not that obnoxious orange colour that the blonde liked to wear all the time, as soon as he came to the living room he was again greeted by a crowd " why are they here?" He asked as he glance at them, he didn't specify anyone but it was obvious he asked this question to Naruto, who quickly answered " I called them here to welcome you back!" He answered cheerfully, sasuke felt a headache again.
This 'welcome' was really too much for the raven and soon he started to give off an ' come- near-me-and-I'll-kill you ' aura, this scene made Naruto feel funny, he smiled as he 'saved' sasuke from them and then all of them had dinner.
It lasted till late at night by that time sasuke has already successfully 'escaped' from the crowd and ignored their presence even if they persisted on making him talk. This whole time sasuke did his best to predict his brother's location at this time period....and finally decided where his brother might be. He was not sure of his conjecture but he wanted to check...time was a luxury he couldn't afford...his aniki...he could not afford any more damage than what already he had....he cannot loose him this time...it's his second chance...he could not afford to mess it up...with thought like that his exhaustion finally forced him to sleep and recover some of his chakra
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Sasuke woke up in a cold sweat, his eyes bloodshot, he felt his heart racing so fast as if it would explode at any given moment he closed his eyes and covered his ears, violently shaking his head as if it would get rid of those horrid images and the voices. He was wide awake but still could not get rid of the nightmares that played again and again inside his head as if it was in an infinite loop, tormenting him, reminding him of what he had already gone through, reminding him of his terrible mistakes, of the damage he had done that can't be repaired, what he had lost that he couldn't get back again even if he gave up everything for it....
Sasuke felt his heart going colder and colder and his body growing numb because of how cold he felt, this kind of cold had nothing to do with temprature...it was so cold, he felt empty, it was to the point he almost panicked, he suddenly felt a small sharp pain, it was so small but it gave him some kind of comfort, he glanced at the source, he had clenched his fist so tight that his nails dug into his skin breaching it, sasuke stared at the small cut in his palm, he stared at it for a long time and then he slowly got off of the bed looking at his katana and weapon seal on the bed side table, he kept his eyes on them finally as if reaching a conclusion or a decision he grabbed his weapon seal and took out a kunai, looking at the sharp kunai gleam in the moon light, tears finally left his bloodshot eyes as he with a slight flick of his wrist he changed his hold on kunai placing the cold blade on his exposed upper arm where it'd difficult for anyone to see and easier for him to hide them, he started to cut
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Soon his whole upper arm was covered with cuts, it was a bloody mess before he felt calmed enough to focus on anything else. He quickly patched himself up, his left arm was almost numb, and there was a sharp pain when he moved it, but this pain calmed him down, it kept him from losing himself, after taking care of his arm and changing into his own clothes that had been washed and cleaned already, he made sure to check his weapons, when he was done, he glanced at the time, it was only 3 am, he had only slept for two hours, he walked to the window to leave but as he was about to jump out, he stopped in his actions, sighed and then wrote a note
' I'm going out . Don't look for me I'll be back soon'
pasting it on Naruto's cupboard, then he finally jumped out the window, shunshied in mid-air appearing out of konoha's gate, without stopping he moved forward into the forest jumping from tree to tree before the gate guards could detect him. He kept moving forward without looking back, only one destination in his mind.