Vampire Servant (J.JK)

Ch 41: Haunted By Memories

Y/N

''You're not actually planning on trusting that guy right?'' Both of us were seated on the couch. I found myself blankly staring at the coffee table in front of me. 

''I just want to be trained properly.'' It's an honest fact that I'm stating right now. I'm still weak. I have a lot to learn, but I can learn only so much from Mr. Lee and Hoseok. 

''If it's about Jooha, we can get her back without his help.'' It wasn't what he said that slightly annoyed me. It was hearing Jooha her name. It made me tremendously annoyed. Annoyance darted towards me. 

''It should have been me....'' I lightly sighed before straightening my back. All my thoughts were starting to overflow and pour out. 

''If I took a distance from everyone this wouldn't have happened. That day I bet they saw Byeol with me in this apartment. So they targeted her when the time was right. It should have been me who they would have targeted. I should have been the one dead right now not her. If I took my distance from Jooha they wouldn't have traced her either and made an opportunity for Mr. Hak to take her.''

''Its not your fau-''

''Every day I'm wondering if she is even alive.  Is she okay? Being fed properly? What if he is torturing her? What if right now while I'm seated here in a warm room with a full belly, she is there laying on a cold floor starving. I can't protect the people I love like this. I can't even call my mother being afraid she will be targeted as well. These days she keeps on messaging me that she misses me. She sees the news that's going on in the city right now. She is worried about me. I wish I could just call her and tell her everything, just so she could tell me everything is going to be okay...but I can't. Cause I'm weak....''

The room fell silent, Jungkook remained quiet beside me. I know that...I have changed, but It's for the best. 

''At the beginning, I admit..knowing about the existence of your kind amazed me. As a human who didn't know anything, it was thrilling to know that perhaps fantasies do come true. Vampires, werewolves how fascinating.''

I could gradually feel my hands ball into fists as the image of Byeol kept replaying in my mind. Laying there in cold blood is followed by an image of Jaejin who was crying so bad causing him to choke up and almost faint. 

''But now.....it disgusts me. Playing with human lives like it's nothing, acting like some kind of superior breed.'' A small scoff left my mouth accompanied by a laugh. 

''I should just...kill them all.''

''This isn't you.'' Warmth wrapped around my hands while I felt Jungkook his eyes stare at me from the side. 

''I know...What can I do? Do you expect me to stay the same after all that?'' Thinking back about my pathetic self back in the day made me frustrated. I stood up from my spot looking down at him as I brushed off his hand. 

''You want me to cry and shelter behind your back? Begging you to protect my loved ones?''

''We are trying to protec-''

''Byeol died.....'' He got himself off the couch towering in front of me. 

''You know we tried to protect he-''

''I'm not blaming you guys. I'm blaming myself for relying on others. I don't want to rely on anyone anymore. I want to get stronger and protect them myself. So yes I'm planning on trusting that guy.'' As I was expecting some kind of argument back on trusting a stranger I fell back. 

It took only a moment for Jungkook his strong build to embrace me, burying his face against the side of my head as he pressed me up against his chest and neck. 

''You haven't cried nor laughed even once after what happened. I'm sorry''

What is he apologizing for?

''You do your thing. Train, get stronger, protect those you want without looking back. Cause I'll be protecting you from behind. I promise.''

''Why?'' Why do that...for me? 

As heard from the stories Jungkook seemed to be someone who only cares about himself. Though his kindness towards me did cause me to develop certain feelings for him in the past. It was quite laughable. The past me would have been blushing like crazy at this moment, but the me right now...Doesn't even feel my heart skip a single beat. 

The hug appeared to become tighter as he let out a heavy breath.

''I'm trying to figure that out myself.'' His voice came with a whisper as I remained silent. 

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Jungkook

''It disgusts me.''

''I should just...kill them all.''

As I laid sprawled out on the couch I could feel the chilly temperature in the room hit my skin.

''I don't blame her.'' After all, I remember how I used to hate my own kind as well. 

It's been a while since I've been here. 

Thinking back about how I spent my days with Y/N here made my eyes soften. She had so much laughter in her, she was always so caring and kind. Making meals and breakfast. Right now she is just.....broken. It's like looking at a piece of my past self. 

I'm still quite taken back that she told me I could stay here.

My ears caught the sound of footsteps approaching and before I knew it a blanket came in my vision thrown in the air before it hit my face. 

''It's usually chilly here at night.'' I watched Y/N tie her hair in a loose low bun as she talked to me. 

''Why don't you turn on the heater?''

''Cause I don't feel the cold.'' What does she mean?

''I'm working on raising my body temperature to keep the necromancer energy in my body flowing constantly. Even when I'm sleeping. They say now that the flame which is the source of my energy has awakened I should keep it burning the whole time.''

So that's how it is...

''Is your heartbeat always this low?'' Her sudden question caught me off guard. 

''Yeah, our heart just beats one low pace. It doesn't pick up or anything.''

''Mmmm, goodnight.'' And with that, she returned back to the bedroom. 

Did....her hearing senses improve? How is she able to hear my heartbeat from such a distance?