Vampire Servant (J.JK)

Ch 50: She Is Gone

Jooha

She is....dead? Byeol is...

I felt myself stumble back on the bench. Strands of hair started to block my vizion as I thought back about that day. 

''See, I kept my promise.'' Hearing Taesung his voice only made this awful feeling grow. 

''You knew?'' I closed my eyes for a moment as I took a deep breath filling my stinging lungs with air. Our eyes locked and I could tell he was rather confused. 

''You knew....that Byeol got killed.'' It wasn't a question anymore but rather a fact I was stating, and looking at the way his eyes changed...I was right. 

Of course hearing Y/N tell me this broke me, but I couldn't show it to her. She was crying and beating herself up over it. I had too remain strong, be her shoulder to lean on, but right now...I felt myself slowly fall apart as reality started to sink in. 

''Why didn't you tell me? What else are you hiding from me?'' 

''Jooha..I didn't know she was a friend of yours only till rece-''

''I...I was glad I got rescued. Shamelessly living peaceful days here. Like an Idiot thinking about how she nagged at me to wear a pretty dress to her wedding, and here I was having silly thoughts that I might wear one of these dresses.'' 

I can't stop my tears from falling.

''But while I was living like that here, She was...getting burried. Without any last words..to us, to her fiancee. I was reading books like a happy idiot in a garden while the others out there were crying, mourning over someone we lost and....I didn't even know about it.''

''It was better not to tell yo-''

''Why did you save me?''

If he would have saved Byeol that day...then she would still be alive. 

''You rather want to be in the hands of those people.''

''At least they wouldn't have killed me. They killed her because she wasn't the S class vessel like they thought she was. They wouldn't kill m-''

''No they would have abused you, tortured you, sold you. Is that what you want?'' 

Hearing him raise his voice at me was triggering my emotional state to overflow. 

''I would have withstand everything if that meant Byeol would still be alive right now!''

What is my life even? 

''Stop...'' I tried to steady my breath as I wiped my tears. Taesung his glaring eyes from just now seemed to have soften. 

''Stop...saying such things. I'm sorry...I should have told you but.... I didn't want to hurt you by bringing you that news.'' 

Is he being like this because I remind him of his wife?

No matter what I tried to think about I couldn't help but replay the same sentence over and over again in my head. 

Byeol is dead.

And with every second tears started to fall even more. 

''Jooha...'''

''She is not coming back is she?'' 

Why is this so hard to believe?

A pair of warm hands brushed against my cheeks. I should be cautious of Taesung after all he is the enemy, but yet having him treat me like this. Made me long for more.